I looked up at the stars and now I am crying…
AGAIN!
Its been over a month from a break up from the most amazing relationship I have ever had. and I looked up at the stars…and I cant help but think of him.
I feel so ugly and torn down. I’ve even thought of doing the worst, but never had the guts to do it, or even cut myself. (because I know its wrong) but I get feelings like “well if I was dead, I wonder if he’d regret leaving me broken hearted” or “If I scared him of death, if he’d be the first one to come make sure I am ok”
and things like that, and it scares me…
I’m not a suicidal person, I just get depressed so easily.
and I know what it’d do to my family, so its my LAST resort.
But Idk how to be happy with out him. I try my dancing and music, and it works, until I have to sleep.
idk what to do with myself anymore…
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i get hurt and depressed really easily too. it sucks! and honestly, time is the only thing that will make it better. so just keep busy so that time flies by quicker. watch movies, eat lots of ben and jerry’s, get in touch with old friends, go shopping, and most importantly surround yourself with people- even new guys. don’t expect to like somebody anytime soon but, just find some good guy friends.
it’s okay to cry.. just make sure you’re not glooming around all the time! things will get better!
I was just doing so well, and then today was so pertty out side
all I coulddo was think of what I told him in a valentines day card.
and how he took it to heart, and everything, and the gift he gave me…and its all a domino effect.
i just wish I knew how to feel good about myself all the time…
What helped me when i broke up with my ex (7-8 weeks ago) and still helps actually..
Thinking there’s definetely gonna be a better person sooner or later…and…
Putting on a smile. That helped me loads. You kinda smile to yourself, the laugh ’cause you think what you’re doing is stupid, but then be happier because it’s working. It really works with me. I know it might suck, but…. Yeah..
Try. :D
SMILE!!
don’t worry, you’ll get a better man, but also know that life isn’t always about being in a relationship. no matter what you’re always going to be a beautiful person. it’s hard to love yourself but before you get in another relationship, love yourself first becuase if a break up happens again, you’ll still stand strong.
“Someday you will find the place
It’s the place where love takes over hate
Then you’ll see all the things you do
Affect everyone around you
Then you’ll see there’s no fear at all
You held my hand we took down that wall
As I looked to you with nothing to say
Now I understand why you pushed me away
I looked far and now I see
That the only one I needed was me.”
nobody can feel good about themselves all the time. life is ups and downs, and the downs make the good times that much better. so you’re going through something really rough, but that will make your future better, sooner than you know i’m sure. some days you may break down compared with others, but it will all be alright.
i hope so.
I understand.
It so tough.
I feel like I am always last.
I just wish there was someone wanting to run 1000 miles for me, or wantin to pick me off my feet…
that someone will come :]
“
When you want it the most there’s no easy way out
When you’re ready to go and your heart’s left in doubt
Don’t give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that’s the way it is”
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yea,
well I beleive with my whole heart, that this past relationship was going to work, and I beleive that he loved me.
and for some reason I still beleive he loves me…
I beleive in love…
its just it hasnt proven to me that its there….even when I went full force with it…idk
uknown.nire: try rewording it
Oh, I’m so so sorry! :[
Don’t be so sad! I know how it hurts to be without the one you love though… It can be totally wrecking!
But you’ll be strong. We all are. I totally understand the feeling of wanting to die. But it shall pass. It’s only been a month, sweetie, these hurts take their time!
But see this experience as a new beginning. Set goals for yourself, to improve yourself. Keep busy with friends, meet new people. Socializing is the best in these situations.
Trust me, you’ll meet the guy who’ll run 1000, heck, 100000 miles for you! He’ll come, but in the meantime, and as much as it sucks to hear it for the 3938498557th time, this is a process for growing. You’ll get there! Just focus on yourself now, and what makes you happy (besides him), because there must be something other than him taht makes you happy
Hugs honey! :]
Basically, i recently came out from a relationship and what helped me most, more than when people sad there will be better girls in the future.
I tried to smile and it’d make me kinda smile or laugh ’cause i thought what i was doing was stupid, then i felt happier because it worked and helped me make a more positive feeling about breaking up with the person.
Your mind works best when it’s happier too, so…yeah. :D
yea, I’m just trying to figure out how to make it happy.
I’ve spent the past few weekends hanr ging with another guy, but I dnt htink I like him like “that” (because I used to) and now I am despereate but pickky for finding a date to homecoming.
and as that event keeps coming closer. I get more and more sad.
and dance makes me happy, but I seperate that from my love life, because its going to be my future…so i guess you can say it actually gets my mind off of everything..
I just need like photocomments lmfao.
idk
I need to learn how to feel beautiful.
It comes with time.. And you shouldn’t definetely try and rush out of a relationship. :S
Im not rushing out of one…
Im hurting to much to want to be in one honestly.
but I am trying to date around, to get my mind off of him.
which works until I go out and see a love movie and I start thinking about him.
but I dnt want to mope around the house either.
it’s always a mystery to me to wonder how someone as intensely gorgeous as you are
could be having so much trouble.
because I am a nice person and dont sleep around with anyone.
I love classical music.
Hate rap music.
I do ballet.
not Sports.
I am mature for my age,I personaly believe
and i dont drink and do drugs of any sort.
but I love having fun and laughing, and making people smile.
I dedicate myslef to anything or anyone I love…
so I dont know whats my problem….maybe my bra size…lmao.
mjcatdo wrote:
because I am a nice person and dont sleep around with anyone.I love classical music.Hate rap music.I do ballet.not Sports.I am mature for my age,I personaly believeand i dont drink and do drugs of any sort.but I love having fun and laughing, and making people smile.I dedicate myslef to anything or anyone I love…so I dont know whats my problem….maybe my bra size…lmao.
all those attributes that you just mentioned make it even more so
that I would expect there would be a whole line of guys knocking on your door.
Many guys totally appreciate all those positive attributes.
Don’t ever change them.
Your old boyfriend needs to have his head examined.
lol, it’s never about bra size! ;)
Yeah, you’re gorgeous, and from your description, you’re a wonderful person!
I just think sometimes everyone has some rough times.
But you have great qualities which make you unique and special. I agree with spiratec9, you probably do have a long list of admirers; usually guys are a bit more shy or reserved around girls like you, because they RESPECT YOU a lot more! And that’s good!
Rest assured, something great’s coming your way because with the way you are, you’ll probably get a lot of nice surprises. It happens to good people. ;)
lmao…tell me about it.
he wants to date other girls for more experience, and (maybe) come back to me…because we did have a such great relationship..
Even though I know maturity doesnt rele matter with age, its just most people who are my age tend to be immature, andits hard to find one where I live that is.
and i dont rele think my ex was immature though…
usually I like the college guys…lol but its hard to get to know those guys when you are stuck in a highschool, and they think you are a “little” highschooler…lol
I want to graduate early so bad to get away from highschoolers…:-/
lol.
compared to the “barbies” that are at my school, its rele hard.
lol, I get you.
When i was in high school, guys didn’t give me the time of day! I’m not ugly, but I used to think it was that. My firend told me guys said I was kind of intimidating, that I was like so grown up. I never understood…
… until my older sister started college. Then I met one of her friend and bam! He fell for me.
Later, I met some other college guys. And they fell for me. Yet guys in high school never did. Don’t know why though :S
But still, it happens sometimes. I thonk you’re probably too different compared to the barbie stereotype girls. But I’ve always thought that’s such a great thing. Barbie-types well… they just don’t get quality attention.
I admire young girls like you. You’re so down to earth. Most high school girls aren’t and that’s a shame.
yea.
thanks. :D
It is a shame.
I feel like I have to learn how to be mean, and a b*** to get a boyfriend to fall head over heals for me.
I am an artist and I am proud of it. so I take my creativity seriously, which causes me to be more relaxed because I can take meaness out onto paper, or movement of somesort.
but I cry alot, and never get too mad.
lol.
but my parents only know that, and my ex… :-/
but I just wish I could walk into school, and find a note on my desk that says something sweet from the boy who walks pass me and smiles to me evryday or something…
it sucks.
hey just chill..
i was also dumped by my boyfriend because he thinks that i am not preety enough…
so..just wait for the right time..i know it hurts..but you must have the heart to take it easy…and MOVE ON..
Gosh such a long post. :) i did not read all but just looking at your rant, lets me go teary eyed. I am a little lost now. So can’t give good advice. Anyway, take care.
~lilies~ wrote:
Gosh such a long post. :) i did not read all but just looking at your rant, lets me go teary eyed. I am a little lost now. So can’t give good advice. Anyway, take care.
awl. well thanks for your concern :-D
what worked with me is writing everything down that was hurting me and i then burned it. then i felt a lot better knowing that I had released my feelings out.
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sorry supposed to be:
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spiratec9 wrote:
sorry supposed to be:
http://www.kabalarians.com/index.cfm
woah!
that makes sense about me…lol.
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