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Please even if you don’t think they can deal with it tell your parents. I am no expert but nobody should have too deal with this by Themselves. It sounds like your parents love you and would try to help you if you let them. Trust me your mom would rather hear that you cut yourself again than have to attend your funeral. So if you really care how she feels go talk to her. If you just can not talk too her call the hot line it may seem embarrassing but they are there too help you.

I used to hurt myself. Haven’t for about 6-7 years now.
I know what it feels like having issues that you feel no one will understand. They can’t even understand cos they can’t FEEL it. They can’t feel the pain and hurt you feel.

You need to ask yourself, what is the issue or problem, and how does it make you feel when you think about it (no really, you need to know the feelings you get from it, in your case depressed and morbid). What has happened in you life for you to feel so upset?

Deep down you want your friends and family to see the cuts so they can ask. It’s much easier telling some one who asks than having enough courage to go to them with the problem first.

Lastly, I’m going to a funeral this week. A family friend’s 22yr old son hu ng himself on Saturday night behind a video shop. I think the young kid working there found him in the morning. When you contemplate suicide think about what happens when you’re gone. First think about the kid that found him, now what will he live with forever and his family will. He may even do it from seeing it happen - can’t live with it. Then the family finds out. How must they feel knowing that their youngest son has just taken his own life when he could of come to them for help? How much happier would everyone be knowing that he was getting the help he needed to keep him here with them. The will never see him im married or his kids or grand kids.

He took his life so early when he could of been strong and faught through it all. I don’t think he was weak or selfish, I think he just couldn’t turn to the ones who loved him the most. It’s a tragic ending to a life that could of been saved.

How much does your life, including friends and family, mean to you?

Would you just want to give everything up like *click*

Is there a councilor at school you could possibly talk to?

I know, somewhat anyway, how you feel. I certainly empathize. “Drowning in the world” methinks is very well put. I was profoundly miserable for about 4 years (a shocking length of time in retrospect) and was strongly averted to sharing my plight with friends and family. I felt like someone, particularly my parents, should be able to divine the nature of my condition. They didn’t; that hurt. Wasn’t it clear how utterly unhappy I was? Anyway, things eventually came to a head as things often do and my parents became painfully aware of what was going on. At the time I thought it was disastrous but his was the catalyst for getting my life back on track.

The distractions one deals with daily, even though they may seem monumental, are trivial compared to the few things in life of real significance. Family, certainly, is one of the latter. So tell your parents. Sometimes saviors just need a little nudge.

Well for a moment picture your mother at your funeral. I think she would rather cry now, than then. It is not going to be easy for you too talk too her, but the alternative is easy for you and harder for them. You could always print off information on cutting online and hand it too her… or leave it on the kitchen table so she would find it and come too you. Please don’t hurt yourself there are people that do care.

Crystal, please don’t feel like a liar and a failure. Cutting can be extremely hard to overcome and sometimes people slip up.

Also, you’re not all alone in this world. If your Mom cried when you told her last it’s bcause she loves you so much and was worried for you. Please don’t think your alone, people do care you. Talk to them and see, if you are really set against talking to your Mom right now, then talk to someone on here for now. Feel free to shout me or add me as friend and I’ll enable email to you. Remember, you are cared about, no matter how hard it is to see.

What exactly are you afraid will happen?

You are her baby, she may be scared for you but she will try to help you. It might hurt her that you feel this way… but you need the help. You don’t need too worry about other people judging you. It is not there job, she wont think any less of you because you have a problem.

I’m just making an assumption here but, Both your Mom and Dad wouldn’t mind being there for YOU to lean on THEM.

Asking for help and acknowledging you have a problem is not failing, far from it, that’s moving forward.

Just stop and take a deep breath, hold it for a second then let it all out.

You may find it easier too write down what you want too say and give it too her.

Is your Mom unstable? To what trouble are you referring to when you say “times of trouble”?

Crystal, you’ll pull through.
Times get tough but we have to stick them out the best way we can.

If you think your mum couldn’t help you with it right now then see a councilor or a youth worker and get some support. Not saying that she couldn’t deal with your issues now but it might be hard for her to help when there is so much going on for her too.

You need someone strong that can help you right now, if that’s not your mum, there are so many other people and places you can go.

Chin up ;)