experience_drive wrote:
somehow you have sent a signal to your subconscious that you are the enemy. You have trained yourself to sabotage yourself before you can realize any of your visions. Most commonly known as the fear of success. your subconscious controls your instinct correct? so when you are in the middle of your accomplishments and your brain suddenly kicks in with a host of negativity (which by the way: Pos/Neg is a vibration energy it therefor wavers when in emotional phases. Such as when your angry or happy. It reaches varying degrees depending on a multitude of factors. In your thinking this vibrational affect if shown in the effects of outside negativity being introduced into your thoughts and self evaluation. Such if someone calls you stupid and your brain has latched onto that word from other people each voice is there until you mentally invalidate it. It doesn’t matter what they think it matters what you think. However the ones you been listening to are faulty. meaning ok someone calls you a name you believed it, you got sad. your body reacted and sent a message back to your subconscious brain. your subconscious brain reads that you accepted you were stupid. Rather or not you have been stupid in the past name calling which I do well, is still silly and childish. Also however it is more than just momentarily hurtful. When you have negative thoughts at critical points listen to hear whose voice is saying the thought in your head. change your minds negative connotation of you by riding you of one destructive voice at a time. I don’t know does that even make sense to your situation. Is your self esteem faulty? do your best ideas always get met with self critique until they fizzle out and die. Your brain absorbs negative because it causes are larger shift generally because of dramatization of events at times of interaction.
The next step to this however is to remove the negativity from your life and sometimes that means letting go of people. Which has a wide variety in range from painful to deadly depending largely on the other person And your ability to face them and still remain true to yourself. We all know you can be a good friend. Can you be a good friend to yourself.The ability to look at yourself objectively here is important. If there is something you don’t like when you do this, work to change it. One day you will look back to see how far you have come. Your thinking will be clear and precise and you will not suffer from anxiety over how to act because you will just act naturally in any situation. reducing dependency on accolades greatly reduces negativity due to critisism* (however you spell it lol) and mockery.
Wow.. thanks for that. It sounds like you’ve been reading Eckard Tolle - New Earth. If not, it would be a great read for you!
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