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I’m proud of myself

I’m proud of myself today
proud because I am still here today
I took my SI further last night than ever before
I started drinking at 8am this morning
I’m so emotionally drained it doesn’t even hurt anymore
I’m going numb again

You may think I’m a bit screwed up
But I haven’t tried SU in a while now
I’m getting by on my own
no meds, nothing, just me
I’m doing it, one step at a time
facing most of my demons

god i need to cut again already
i’ll be fine, dont worry for me
Si has given me new life
as long as i bleed i don’t need to die anymore.

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noork offline Verified User (3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (7 minutes after post)

Whats SI and SU?

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Help me with: My best friend of 21 years has just ditched me terribly, also recently my bf of 5 years ditched me bigtime.
anothernikki offline Verified User (1 year, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 14 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (12 minutes after post)

Being a help site I cannot codone what you are doing. But I can tell you, as a cutter myself, I completely understand how you feel right now.

Hugs.

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noork offline Verified User (3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (18 minutes after post)

Facing the demons is the first step, and the hardest. Just do it at ur own pace… and do it for no one but urself.
Wish u all the courage n strength in the world to make it right…!
Love!

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Help me with: My best friend of 21 years has just ditched me terribly, also recently my bf of 5 years ditched me bigtime.

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