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Careful now, you dont want to create a monster in yourself. you feel depression and food is your comfort. Not good and it will bite you back.
Do you write? Do you have a hobby?
You need to fill your time. Work is good, how about you take something and keep looking for the job you want. A depressed, fat, person will not make you happy. Try and be constructive with your time/ Write a soldjer who hurts and needs too. Try and make good use of your time. Volunteer even, many causes, shelters for animals, hospitals holding babys, theres a million places that need you.

Go out and see the town. It may have something special to offer you.

Thank you for the replys so far. For the record I am NOT contemplating suicide and I think I have already created that monster in me. Now I want to control or eliminate it. As for “seeing the town”…it is in fact a “Town”. Population very small. There is nothing to see and no place to gather. I am all for taking a job until the “right” one comes along but places aren’t looking for some one in the short term. No, I don’t tell them what I’m doing but I’m either over qualified or so off course with my training that I think it must cause them to question. I also can’t let myself take a job that wants to invest the time and special training required only to have me leave them in two months. I am a good, decent, very compassionate person. I’m just lonely and questioning things.

What did you do before you moved in with your boyfriend? Did you live far from him? What is his job that he is never around? Can you move back where you were before until your boyfriend finds another job so he can spend time building his personal life with someone? It isn’t fair for you at all.

My boyfriend is a wildland firefighter. His job is the better one and the most stable. Last year he spent all his time at my place and made the long commute. We thought that the move would bring us both closer to work. Not just his work but more work opportunities for me. I guess it just hasn’t worked out like we expected. He took a promotion shortly after we moved in together here and as a result is gone much more than usual. Also it has been a very busy fire season from the begining and So. Cal hasn’t even started burning yet. I have been considering moving back but I don’t know that our relationship will be able to handle it. I have some good prospects in the works but they are a month or two out still. I think I’ll be working again by the time he isn’t. I was a fire fighter as well but thought I would try something different, something that would allow me to have a more “normal” life. Normal isn’t working for me but I won’t be able to get back into fire until the 2009 season. Now all my work experience and medical experience and schooling leaves me in a strange place. Trust me, I do want to go back to work but I don’t do well spending a lot of time in doors and a desk job and I are a very bad mix. Thinks probably aren’t as bad as I think they are or as I make them seem I guess. It just tires me out every now and then. I interviewed for a medical office today but I had to be honest with them and it isn’t fair to them if I take the job just for the pay check when I have no real interest in staying there. This was a good place and I passed the info on to some people I thought would do great at it and who could really appreciate it.

Hey, thanks. I needed that.

Anon, you don’t have to sit at home alone, you have a fantastic career, training and knowledge you could help others in your community, even if it is a small one. Do some volunteer work like make a session in your town for people how to fire-proof their homes, and what to do in case of fire how to help the firefighters before they arrive, and go to their houses to check if they actually installed smoke detectors. You can help volunteering to the town’s city hall by giving first aid lectures to students or anyone interested, I assume you have first aid training. Just a few ideas to make you feel happy and motivated again. There is no more respected career than like yours who actually help others in need.

if you can’t find a job you like, get one you can live with and go to school so you can eventually get one you like.

I have felt like that too. I know how you feel. Do you have any friends that can support you?