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Classic case scenario.
Soo…hmm…
i believe i kinda…err..love.my ex boyfriend.
i say this because when i hear his name i LITERALLY stop breath. when i see him I LITERALLY freeze up or trip over myself around him. And i LITERALLY hurt in my chest when discussing/thinking about any aspect of him. haha get the literal part yet XD.
but with all serious-ness, i feel this for him and he just got a new girlfriend. he wants to hang out but i’m so scared to, because i dont want to flirt, thats wrong, and i dont…exactly want to hurt anymore. but it sux H-core cuz i flippin hurt either way! blehh. wanna here the twisted part?? lolz kay so we dated for 14 months, he was my first boyfriend and my first well … everything…lolz (dw, im old enuff ~.^) but yeh when we dated we fought constantly about pointless randomness. I felt like i had no sense i individuality because i barely hung out with my friend(less than once a month) and if i did i felt bad that i ditched him.my personality was shrinking as the days past. soon i wore what he accepted, brushed my teeth the amount of time he liked (i take uber long in the restroom, so i dont blame him) but yeh almost everyaspect of my life was controlled and i felt like my head was going to explode! i was never happy anymore. i was always stressed! and the reason i got into a relationship with him was because i could make him happy and that made me happy! before he was kinda of a mess.but we made eachother healthy and happy. it was amazing…but things got way outta control and way to serious, i felt like i was married to like….some over controlling but super uberrr lovable …guy lolz! but yes. in the end. (let me get this straight) I, ME, broke up with him. and he begged for me back. its been 3 months. and ive wanted him back as much as he wanted me but i wouldn’t let myself give in because i thought that if he loved me, he would wait till we could handle been chillz with eachother. but nope he does a hole bunch of girls. started back up on e. goes to raves. and well pretty much ***** every other girl…..so yehh….and know what.
my ****** up mind still wants this kid. yup the one who btw cheated on me 3 times…but you know what. whos counting. bleh . homg. wow….so i totally jus needed to get that out haha!
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