Love help: my mom ran away in June…ive been dealing with eating disorders,

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my mom ran away in June…

ive been dealing with eating disorders, self-harm, panic, bipolar, and now this…i cant take this ****…my mom does drugs, and recently got arrested for having a coke pipe and some stuff on her, but her married boyfriend bailed her out…i wish she had stayed there…most times i just want to die…then id be with all the people ive lost…like my dad when i was two…he fell off a boat and drownt…my papa, who had a heart attack shortly after…my cousin who got brutally murdered by her step dad when i was in first grade…and my great gram who died last year…i hate everything about myself…the way i look, how i interact with people, and the fact that i cant make myself better…some days i look at myself in the mirror and wish i could die right then…i love my younger siblings, and i want to be a good role model for them, but i cant…ive been in the hospital like seven times, and tried to kill myself twice…how was i supposed to know that a bottle of ibuprofen wouldnt kill me…someone please talk to me…i need someone, but if i talk to my family, im afraif ill end up in the hospital again, and today was my first day of my senior year and i just want it to be a good one…

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An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (6 minutes after post)

Killing yourself isn’t a solution, that’ll ruin your younger siblings lives. They care about you, and you need to start acting like the role model you want to be.

Basically, the best thing you can do is talk to a professional, I can’t give you any significant help.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (17 minutes after post)

Jesus Love You … Be Strong… Pray everyday … It makes different …

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An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (36 minutes after post)

Keep in mind that it’s not your fault that you might feel unable to act like a role model or that all those bad things happened in your life. You just try to do the best you can. Of course killing yourself is not a solution if you care for your younger siblings.( butterflyplum is absolutely right). And remember it’s nothing bad to get professional help.It shows that you’re still strong enough to do the right thing! That will not only help you but also your siblings! Hey and don’t feel alone with you’re problems. You could just walk into a church e.g. if you don’t know where to go ( wether you’re christian or not) they will help you get a plan ( I know what I’m talking about…) You ca do it :)

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An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (56 minutes after post)

You CAN survive this. I believe it and so can you . Start by removing thes words like ‘cant’ from your thoughts.its time to stand up, put it all behind and say ‘hey, Im not going to let this control me’ Im going to take control’! and then DO IT! All the things that have happened were NOT of your doing.They are just situations and very unfortunate circumstances that were placed in your life,You did not deserve them or ask for them. They do NOT define who you are. Who you are is the person you want to be, you just don’t see it yet. YOu don ‘t need to make yourself better because the problem is nOT yours. What you do need and deserve is a better life, the one you were meant to have from the start.I admire you for wanting to be a good role model for your siblings,And you should be proud of yourself .It shows your not a selfish person like those around you. What you have experienced so far is an injustice and should distance yourself from the negative people and situations. Do you think you can live somewhere else? Maybe if you tell more about your situation as of now.like who you live with

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An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (17 hours, 22 minutes after post)

wow
it’s ok for you to be upset. who wouldn’t be. take some time to cry but then get up get out of your room and enjoy your senior year. your sibs love you and that will always be there for you. you are not alone. but i’m sure it feels like it. i know its hard to believe but years from now youll look back and say wow i am strong i got through that tough time, now i’ll deal with this problem. good luck. but remember we make our own luck. you are beautiful all people are…… except my mother in law……. no just kidding she has beautiful moments also. peace out.

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An Unknown Location | 2 months, 4 weeks ago (3 days, 3 hours after post)

hey i’m sorry to hear about your problems and i really can understand your feeling…
the love of jesus is the only one that can fill your hearts with love and peace you’ve been looking for. he’s the way truth and life. and he’s just as far as prayer. i’m telling you from my experience. i’ve been through this before, the depression and loneliness that haunted me for years and the emptiness inside becoz i lost my dad at 10… but jesus saved me. just ask him to come to your heart, he’ll give you the rest and peace and meaning of life, the relationship between you and father god and that’s why he died for you…. jesus said in matt 28:11 come to me all who are weary and i will give you rest. i was a weary person before and i came to him. it’s no stupid christian religion, it’s about jesus and you and how your life can be changed, as mine was.

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