Love help: Less then 24 hours ago I would have had no doubt in my mind that my boyfriend loved me. - Help.com

Less then 24 hours ago I would have had no doubt in my mind that my boyfriend loved me.

And now it don’t seem that way. He lied. And its not that it was a big relationship ruining lie but it’s the simple fact that he lied. I love this boy with all my heart and soul and never except for once have I lied to him. Okay well I can’t say never then but still it was only once and I know that I sound like a hypocrite but I hate liars and it seems like that all that comes out of his mouth these days. And its like I look at myself and I try to find the ways that I’ve been a bad girlfriend to him and I can’t find too many. I’m only 16 and I’ve had more failed relationships then 10 people could count on both hands. Okay so I’m exaggerating but just a bit. Really I’ve had more then my fair share of heart break, enough to last a life time and as I said I’m only 16. I’m so determined to make this relationship work but it just hurts so badly when I’m the only one putting in any effort. Alright when I said all that comes out of his mouth is lies well that wasn’t true. Another exaggeration. But it just seems like I trust him less and less. We were growing and going places together. I thought this was going work. I try so much. I try so hard. I just want to be a good girlfriend. I try not to nag, I’m not very clingy. I avoid arguments, I don’t down his friends in fact I’m cool with most of them. When he needs space I give it to him without question. I try not to be pushy or over bearing. In every book I’ve read there are some things men can’t stand about women I try so hard to avoid being all those things. I’m not overly sensitive even though I’m a very sensitive person. I’m there for him when he needs me. When he needs to talk I listen. When he needs advice I give it. Everything I own is his all he has to do is ask and I would give him my last dollar. In fact I have done that on many occasions. I put my needs aside and cater to him. And I do any and everything he asks me to. All I want in return is his unconditional eternal honest undying monogamous love. Is that to much to ask? And now i just feel like once again I’m putting myself out there for a guy who won’t give me what I need and deserve. Once again I feel like I’m with a guy who doesn’t deserve me. But when he tells me he loves me he seems so sincere. And I believe him. I’ve believed him from the very first moment he said it. We get along so well. We have so much fun together. I feel like he’s my soul mate. I’m at the point where I want to break up with him. My heart hurts be because I can’t see my life with out him. I’ve seen him at his worst and he’s seen me at mine and we still loved each other after that. I can’t see me with out him. Everyone tells us we belong together. And I think its true well I did. I don’t know anymore. And I don’t know why I feel like this cause what he lied about wasn’t a big deal. I just don’t know what to do. Why do I feel like this?

This open post was written 3 months ago | V/U/S: 133, 3, 3 | Edit Post | Leave a reply | Report Post

Soul, All That, Love, Boy, life, man, lie, heart, Find, Big (How Tags Affect Reciprocity)

A logged in and verified Help.com member has the ability to setup a Friends List and invite others to help with posts.