Right, i feel really depressed at the moment, well i have been for a while but just latley i’ve been showing it, for many reasons:
1. I dont really get on with my mum anymore and defernantly NOT my step dad!
Lets just say he’s a violent drunk who just breaks up the family by doing unforgetful things, such as abusing my mum and shouting at my autistic(sorry about the spelling)brother for no reason.
2. Just lately been trying to find my dad as he left me and my mum for another woman while i was young.I had success in finding him, which was great apart from the fact that he doesnt want anything to do with me. which is just great..
3.I used to cut myself and because i completely dislike myself for various reasons and because of this obviously i have scars, its just a constant reminder of how stupid i am.
4.One word “SCHOOL” lets just say i’m not exactly a bright student and which just makes everything even better my auntie and uncle are well..err…lets just say very sucessful and that they expect me to do well just because my step sister did. Ohh and i also told one of my teachers about some of my problems which are now the past and now he ignores me completely, probably because he thinks i’m seeking sympathy or something, which i aint as i’m just wanting some help and didnt get it..I’ve also been talking to my head of year who has helped alot, but i dont tell him everything but i dont know why, i just cant do it.
5.I’ve been liking this lad for ages and he did used to give me the impression he liked me too even though we dont really know each other that much but now he has a girlfriend who is just way better than me .
6. My mum told me a few days ago when i just got back from my vistit to my gran and grandads that grandad might have cancer behind his eyes, but i didnt think that was possible but apparentlly it is.
I’m so sure everyones wanting me to die or something, and lets just say i feel like i want to die!!
Someone give me some advice please, i dont know what to do?! its all so confusing and depressing! :(
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