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So, my BFFbrought up a very good point with me today, and I guess it got me thinking.

See, we all know I’ve got this problem.. as far as guys go. I mean, come on, what normal teenaged girl goes through the whole “omg, I really like him.” thing as much as I have this year? Honestly?

So, she brought it up with me. I say the same thing every time–that I don’t want to rush into something, and that I don’t want to get hurt and etc… and like she pointed out, I set myself up for heartbreak, when I say that I don’t want it. So, it just made me start thinking.

I know I do what I do, I don’t know why I do.. but I do it. Okay, so maybe that was a lie. Maybe, I might know why I do what I do.. maybe, anyway. First off, I’m a very confused-random-undecisive person. I change my mind–a lot. I don’t really think before I act, or at least I try not to, and I try to just act with the flow.

Still.. as far as the guy stuff goes.. I say I don’t want to get hurt, and honestly.. I don’t. Still.. I guess that’s something that comes with me.. I expect to get hurt.. that’s what’s happened my whole life.. and after getting out of my last, stable relationship for the reasons that I did.. I guess it just stayed in my head–People are going to hurt me no matter what I do.. so.. maybe.. I set myself up for heartache and pain because.. well.. I expect it’s going to happen?

Maybe?

I don’t know.. I’m ****** up, I get that.. completely. I know I’ve got issues I should work out pretty soon.. and I’m sorry for anyone who has to put up with me/chooses to put up with me. I mean.. on one hand, I don’t want to be alone.. and I just crave to be loved.. you know? I hate being alone. I’ve been lonely for a while.. and I guess that might be a reason why I push myself towards a lot of guys. Then, on another hand.. I don’t want to be hurt.. and I don’t want to rush into anything right now, and I expect that no matter what happens.. I’m going to be hurt.

So.. I honestly don’t know how to stop any of this.. or even fix it =/

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