Wow that poem described me. As much as i hate being around ppl once im alone for too long i begin to want closure again.
I agree , being alone can be over-rated at times.
Alone except for a few special people. Yay :)
Yeah, problem is, I’m not sure if I like being alone or not.
I’m more comfortable, but more awkward.
I feel safe, but injured.
I feel calm, but insane as a hungry beast.
people were made to need other people, we can’t go through this chaotic world alone, as much as it might seem better at times, it’s good to have friends and people to love even if you have to take a break from them sometimes.
What if I’ve had a break my whole life?
And every time I get a break from my break, I subconsciously push the invaders away and delve deeper within my dark mind.
I’m around people so very little. I stay away from them so much.
I am just a drifting spirit, and, so far, I have gone through this chaotic world alone.
By myself because I can’t get myself to open up and become a person like the rest of you.
maybe you should find people that like the same things you like, even if it’s in an online chat room or something.
that’s how I make a lot of my friends cause i’m so shy with people face to face
I’ve tried, but eventually I push them away too.
I don’t know why, I could be a really great friend if I wasn’t so odd.
I make great friends, and then I change around them and start acting differently.
Then they don’t accept me anymore.
People say they will always be there for me, but as soon as I really need them, they turn their heads and leave.
They leave because although they will always be there for me, I am not the me they knew anymore.
As I get to know people they become to like me more and then it suddenly drops because I become, well, what I am right now…
could it be that you don’t know who you are yourself? maybe you should try to find out who you truly are before trying to know others. if your an adolescent then change is perfecly normal too
or maybe you have a medical condition that makes you change. It’s surprising how many people have bipolar disorders or anxiety disorders and don’t know it, but that’s nothing to be ashamed about at all, even if they need to see a therepist or take medicine.
I myself have social anxiety disorder which makes it hard to make friends and meet people and even get out of the house sometimes but medicine has helped a lot with it and now it’s much easier most of the time.
I already knew that I don’t know myself.
I’ve been trying to figure out who that is for a long time.
And I’m also pretty sure I have bi-polar/ multi-personalities…
Why can’t I just be normal?
because normal doesn’t exist. everyones version of normal is different.
i’ve found that finding religion helps too.
My opinion of normal:
Fitting in with the person to your left.
It depends on how close to normal you are thinking.
I think normal is a sense of who you think you are.
Who you are capable of being.
And who others see you as.
Therefore, in this case, very many people are normal.
I am one that is odd, weird, different.
I can’t take religion.
I’ve tried.
It’s basically just people telling you how evil you are.
People telling you what to believe is right or wrong.
People making you think that if you have happiness you are an evildoer.
No.
I have my own religion, thank you very much.
well, that just goes back to trying to find out who you are. make a list of the things you like and things that make you happy, and then make one of things you don’t like and things you hate. that list will give you a pretty basic idea of who you are.
then make a list of what you believe is good and one of what you believe is bad. that will help too
Actually, I’ve tried it before, every time I thought of something I would think of something I would put it on.
But every day I would have to move things around, because my opinion changes.
My eraser eventually faded the paper into tearing state and I gave up.
seriously things may be as simple as seeing a therepist to get your life straightened out and that’s nothing to be ashamed of at all. I really don’t know what else to tell you, I’m sorry :(
Nah, it’s fine. I can’t see a therapist though, too expensive.
ok well i’m sorry I couldn’t help you any better, you seem like a cool person regardless of how much you change. maybe that is what makes you who you truly are and thats cool!
Hah, thanks. But I am truly nobody, so it’s just for now. But thanks.
very good me as you know :D
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