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my month from hell.
i lost my job, had emergency appendectomy surgery, and had to push my wedding back. i’ve got no insurance to pay for the surgery… and all this happened on top of the depression and anxiety i was previously feeling.
i can’t get off the couch. i don’t want to do any of my normal activities. i … just want to forget. everything.
i wouldn’t say i’m suicidal, but i’m emotionally out of control. i’ve looked into therapy, but can’t afford it - obviously.
i just need a friend right now, but i feel as though i already used up all my “compassion banks” from my friends when i had my surgery. they were with me the whole time coming in and out of the hospital and taking care of me afterward as i healed. i don’t want them thinking i’m taking advantage of them, but i really need someone to come and be with me. everyone has their own life and it really is inconvenient of me to ask, but i don’t know what else to do. i’m going a bit manic here.
i started smoking again, pulled out the tequila tonight… these are habits i’m not normally prone to turn to, but since i have nothing else. i just need to relax…and sleep…and not feel all this pressure and pain on me.
i need to let go, but i need to pay my bills next month and i don’t know how that is going to happen if i don’t get a **** job. believe me, i’ve tried with the job thing.
you go to college, pay tons of money for a degree that isn’t going to get you a job above starbucks or cleaning toilets? what the hell! i’ve sent my resume to several people, all types of jobs, and haven’t heard a **** thing back. i’ve even called to “check in” and let them know i was available.
i’m drowning here. i need someone to throw me a life raft.
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