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your father is to blame for that. you can’t choose who your parents are. its sad on his part that he doesn’t love you, not yours. don’t turn back to drugs, it will just get harder. how long have you been clean?

as a person who’s family doesnt care about me… i have to say that you need to realize that in order to care about yourself.. you dont need those who are suppose to care and dont..

you need to do this for yourself… not for them… you dont need their approval to fix your life…

you have started this fight to win against this… and you need to continue on that route… if you need someone to show you support, stay on this site… you will find people do care… even perfect strangers…

also, have you thought about going into a rehab type place.. or a place for recovering people… in which you can all have stories and understanding of what you are going through… i mean, there are others in this world who are going through the exact same thing that you are and feel the same exact way… a lot of times, you can find comfort in knowing that you are not alone..

i tried aa and na meetings-i thought maybe i could fit in with other addicts and im not even meant to fit in with them i have so much guilt for so much in my life do u know whats it like trying to fall asleep at nite and all that comes into your mind is all of the horrible things in your life all of the times u dont want to remember all of the things u want to block out and u know what i know if i was prettier and smarter and had done something with my life by now that my dad really would care about me u know whats funny im the only one out of my brothers that truely cares about my mom my brothers use her so she will send them money that they buy drugs with im the only one that respects my mom and she treats me like im a piece of garbage and maybe i am u know sometimes i think im a good person then other times i realise if i was then why would i have the life i have if i was a good person that was meant to be around i would have made something of myself by now im justa loser im always going to be this loser no matter how much i try not to be ill never trust anyone ever ever ever

you’re a good person because of your life, not the other way around. People who have it too easy usually get spoiled by it.

but you have to stop being negative.. because when you are negative.. you are self doubting yourself and your worth.. just because you see yourself as in one way, doesnt mean others see you that way…

it sounds like you have had a rough life with family just like i have… and im so sorry because yes, i agree.. to have a mother and father treat you like crap is a very horrible feeling… because it makes you think.. if my own parents cant love me.. then nobody else could ever love me…

but you are wrong… please believe me… you need to cut these negatives out of your life… yes, its hard to cut your family out of your life… but, until you do, you will never find true happiness… trust me… once i cut mine out of my life… my life hasnt been easy.. but it has gotten a lot better…

seriously.. it sounds like you need to get into therapy… let a professional tell you…

no child deserves to be treated the way that you are being treated…

You don’t need your father’s love to help you. You sound like a strong enough person, you have the ability to rrelie on your own strengths to see you through. There are alot of other people that care for you.

thank u everyone for helping me except saywha-that was kinda harsh-im a human too and yeah sometimes i feel that way too but if someone was reaching out for help i wouldnt say something like that but thank u u guys cause it does help to know there are some good people in the world who do care and want to help others so thank u

You can change your life, its gonna be difficult and its gone get really tough but your gona have to find that strength from somewhere because you have been given this chance to get on with life and make yourself happy. Make something of yourself.

Do you have any goals or dreams you want to follow?

yeah i want to graduate and get a degree in psychology. i figure since i have so much experience with it maybe i can help other people. i do have alot of goals-i want to finish school, get married and have children one day. i want to give back to my mom cause even though she does treat me badly sometimes she’s still my mom and i want her to be happy. ell i try to find strength but sometimes its hard-i find it from god and from my boyfriend cause i know he loves me. he is the one person that really loves me no matter what and he helps me everyday to stay clean. no guy has ever treated me like he does and i love him for that. i just wish i had accomplished alot more in my life than i have as of right now. it makes me feel like a loser, like im behind everyone else

Well if you feel that way about your boyfriend, you need to start being really honest with him. Like when you get the urge to use again, quickly call him or text him. Let him know. He can be there to help you and take your mind off it. You need to find other things you can do that is healthy to replace the drug taking.

Have you found anything so far that you find helps, that you do to take your mind off drugs when you feel like using?

What have you done so far to achieve your psychology degree. Are you studying at the minute?

The pills will only make things worse. You know it’s true.

I feel for you. I can relate to how you feel. Its good to see that you do feel that means you have an opportunity to feel good, if that makes sense.

All I would say is dont go to AA. It is a dangerous religious cult. There are many other options for people who have struggled with drug use.

I hope you find happiness.