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try ginger tea, it steadies the nerves. Get a ginger root at the grocery store. Then you wash the root a little, slice it into thin slices and boil it in a gallon or so of water. After that remove the root and boil some milk and honey into the tea. Store in the fridge good hot or cold.

Hi.You’re a diamond in the rough. You’re desire to change for the better is aproof that there is goodness in you. Kudos to that. A little more time, effort and guidance, you’ll be able to be a better person. The “polishing process” might be slow and sometimes difficult but I know that once you get through and I know you will, you’ll be a diamond that will stand out on the rough (not in the rought anymore).

Here’s a tip. It’s works for me so I’m hoping it would work on you too.
Try changing bit by bit. One not-so-good trait at a time. It’s good to focus first on those you feel are easiest to change. You could make a list so that you can prioritize things. Make a not-to-do list. That helps too.

Be observant of your actions. Watch yourself and your thoughts, feelings and moves. Say you start to get too emotional, stop yourself, take a deep breath, think happy thoughts and then continue dealing with the situation. When you set yourself that you’ll work on changing, you start building up a subconscious warning signal that prompts you and say “Oops. Pause and deep breath kid. Happy thoughts.” I don’t know how the warning signal will come. In my case, it just did. Well at the start of each day I tell myself “Be a good girl.” I’m not super good. I’m working on it.

Also, see the good side in you. I’ve been through what you’re going through…felling like a screw-ball. Don’t dwell on your mistakes. Learn from them and move on. Messing up is okay as long as you learn your lesson and try not to do it again. If you fail and make the same mess, then try again. We’re humans and we make mistakes but what makes us humans is that we learn from it.

I hope this would help.

P.S. It’s good that you want to change and be a better person. With that, you’re already closer to becoming better.