I feel completely erasable.
As is I simply don’t matter and were I not here the world would continue on and so would all who are in it. Thank you for very effectively clearing that up for me.
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Why would you say that about yourself?
“Thank you for very effectively clearing that up for me”.
Hmmm, nothing I see is clear. Why do you say that?
i aint much fancy on that spellin
I ran away most of junior high
I guess i shouldn’t have let em
maybe I should have gotten high
I don’t know I’m just saying
It is sure better than praying
my knee’s are hurting already
but the still hold me steady
so I guess I’ll thank him afterwhile
when i leave here with a smile
I don’t think it needs explainin
if you’ll excuse me I’m refrainin
it seems i am on that down ward slope
for which my tongue carries rope
i have something yet to do
and then i will be through
and you can erase me once again
I shall behave until then
I’ve always believed that we are the difference we make in others’ lives. If you feel erasable, then it’s up to you to change that feeling. Start regularly visiting an elderly relative that doesn’t get much company, do some work for charitable organizations, be a good listener or good friend, strike up conversations with strangers (including helping people here on this site!). If you start doing these things, then you’ll feel like you make a difference and aren’t erasable.
TriumphAlice wrote:
Ever seen “It’s a Wonderful Life”?
Touche! :)
iwana You have no idea just how much i have given to helping people. they die fix that.
maybe I just don’t wanna care anymore. This sight found me erasable and maybe i am have a good one.
Everyone feels insignificant, it’s hard not to when there are billions of people in the world. Sure, the “World” itself would move on, but those closest to you may not. You affect people more than you realize, even strangers. That is very selfless that you have commited to helping others, just remember to balance that and remember to help yourself from time to time.
i don’t feel insignificant. please don’t presume to tell me how i feel.
I was merely replacing your use of “erasable” with an synonym pertaining to the subject. If that is all you can take from my comment, I apologize.
Smicki, why don’t you tell us what the actual foundation of the problem is so we can understand more? What happened or what made you get to the point of how you’re feeling now?
So many people have felt the same way at some point in time in their life. Heck if I don’t have 3 kids right now I’ll feel eraseable too. In fact I felt that way just a minute ago, but I remembered that I have 3 kids. So I shouldn’t be just erased like that. That’ll completely ruin the life of my 3 kids. Have a kid or 2. Then you won’t feel eraseable anymore, instead you’ll feel uneraseable. Or more like problematic. Atleast problematic is not eraseable.
Yes, they do die. And it’s hard. My dad died in 2007 after a major stroke 7 months before. After he had the stroke, I tried to do lots of things for him. And even though he died, I still feel like I helped make his time left a little better, and I got to spend that time with him, so I benefited, too.
Since you have given of yourself, I bet those who you helped don’t find you erasable (see “It’s a Wonderful Life” mentioned earlier!). And hey, you made me think today, so I’m glad you were here today! :)
“Smicki, why don’t you tell us what the actual foundation of the problem is so we can understand more? What happened or what made you get to the point of how you’re feeling now? ” (I was venting it doesn’t need further explination.
“So many people have felt the same way at some point in time in their life. Heck if I don’t have 3 kids right now I’ll feel eraseable too. In fact I felt that way just a minute ago, but I remembered that I have 3 kids. So I shouldn’t be just erased like that. That’ll completely ruin the life of my 3 kids. Have a kid or 2. Then you won’t feel eraseable anymore, instead you’ll feel uneraseable. Or more like problematic. Atleast problematic is not eraseable. ” (what makes you assume i haven’t had children. never mind i am not even going to coddle flippant answers to a statement of emotional feeling. To make assumptions without knowledge is not the best solution i think.
Iwana I am sure your father treasures that times as well wherever he may be. Thank you for your comments.
how’s that and good i am glad.
Dunno. Just did.
Added to my life-experience a bit.
A butterfly flapped its’ wings in South America and a little breeze came through my window kind of thing. When you don’t have air conditioning every little bit helps I guess.
I have had the experience of no air conditioning that can really stink literally at times. Pain comes with living but so does happiness without one the other could not be fully realized. We are all connected rather we recognize it or not.
yes!
Amazing!
You sound like Nietzsche. hehe.
It took a long time to start living these truths. I am still a work in progress as all humans are.
So, since you’re living these truths, then how could you ever see yourself as erasable, smicki3? :o)
I think i have said repeatedly I was venting and did not wish to go into detail. truth doesn’t come from hiding your feelings and living truthfully doesnt mean you will never feel bad that’s life. It affects how you handle those things.
That’s true, but since you had acknowledged with Anon that you saw our interconnectivity as humans, I just didn’t see how that squared with feeling erasable. Just the connections you made through this one post may have affected people more than you will ever know.
You are right about the pain/happiness balance tho. Kind of like when you’re sick and you start realize how much you take feeling healthy for granted.
Keep putting this out there for us - it’s good stuff . . .
Adding nothing/something to the conversation:
Personally, I’m not entirely fond of things that lead to slow and steady change. Leading by example, etc. Lots of things hurt. Like running a marathon. But you run, cause eventually you’re gonna win.
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If not literally, then figuratively, of course.
Let us all linger in this world for a bit.
xD
Ah, this is fun.
slow and steady or immediate and irrevocably change will come because that is what change does. everything changes eventually. something happened that made me feel that way at that moment. So rather than run from those feelings or hide them I confessed them. I find regardless of how bad the feelings you have are saying them out loud helps you to see them clearly and process them more logically.
K - I’m glad to hear that what you said was a feeling of the moment, not that it made it any less real for you at the time. But we’ve all known and have seen postings on this site from people who don’t have or aren’t aware of the balance and that feelings like this can be transcient if you just wait them out.
I have buried children, friends, and family. I have faced depression and self destructive tendencies. I no longer suppress my feelings I face them head on even the bad ones.
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