My emotions are out of whack. I’ve come to accept this as a fact of my life.
I have memory loss. I have entire days when I can’t remember what’s happened.
But this… this is completely unacceptable.
Last night I was talking to my best friend and he made me exceptionally mad. Smoke-coming-out-of-my-ears, hair-burning-on-fire mad. He stated that he resented saying what he did say, and that he wished he hadn’t said anything, because if he hadn’t said anything, we would have been happy. As he said that, something clicked in my brain that realized that he didn’t want me to be upset.
In the second that it took for me to register that, my mind went blank. And I was quite suddenly okay.
We were talking on aim when this happened, so i was able to re-read the parts before I lost my memory and none of it made sense to me. At all. Nothing clicked, nothing flowed together right. I knew that i had been mad, but i didn’t know what for or why I was so mad over something so trivial. I still don’t know, really, just that i forgot, and that i was mad.
I KNOW this is not normal. At ALL.
but does anyone know what im talking about…?
I just dont want to feel like im the only one thats so screwed up…
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Sweety you are NOT screwed up. No one is perfect so never think that something is wrong with you. No one is normal! Just remember that and stay positive :)
Maybe you were suppose to forget that incident because it probably wasnt that serious in the first place.
AmandaLynn wrote: It could be that you’ve developed a habitual emotional reactory response to certain offensive situations. Meaning - as a means of defense - when your offended you simply have taught yourself to automatically “get upset” and let your emotions excell quickly into anger. Why? No reason but habbit.. And for people who habitually respond to things simply out of habbit with no real “thought out reason” - its typical for them to come and go quickly and for the memory of the thing that triggored the emotional response to come and go quickly out of our mind. Just a thought.
my late friend mark thought along those lines… i dont really know what it all means… except that maybe my emotions trigger my memory loss?
I do think it’s worth consulting with a doc about, just to make sure this isn’t being caused by any physical issue. That would give you some reassurance, too.
AmandaLynn wrote: Sweety - is your main concern here your anger or your memory loss?
the anger i can deal with. apparently, i have, seeing as how when i talked to him two seconds after forgetting i was cheery.
I think my biggest problem is the memory loss. Like, i can also deal with the “forgetting days at a time” thing, cus they’re “gradual”. This… instantaneous blankness last night… ive never ever in my life experienced anything like that and its quite a shock to the system.
and to both amanda and skyy, i didnt really remember on my own, i just looked back and checked the aim logs again.
AmandaLynn wrote: Because if its just something you suddenly “forget” and “cant think of” - but you can recall it later most of the time - then i think it does have a lot to do with your emotions. But if its the case where you totally forget and cant remember no matter what - you may seriousally want to go get that checked. Our emotions have a huge part in producing our thoughts. they are very closely linked. So it is natural to assume that if your emotions are totally unstable and just “come and go” very quickly - your thoughts would do the same.
the “come and go” of my emotions…
isnt that some sort of medical problem? like… i dont remember, its not bipolar disorder, but something less… dramatic?
littlenick wrote: Please help me!I was taking memory pills to improve my memory.I ran out of them.I went to buy some more but I forgot where I bought them!
skyy wrote: Oh well maybe you should listen to littlenick and see a doctor to see if this is preventable, if you havent already
i feel like theres something more wrong with me than just my memory loss. like i have an anxiety disorder too, …can’t it all just link up together? or are they separate problems?
skyy wrote: Oh well maybe you should listen to littlenick and see a doctor to see if this is preventable, if you havent already
i feel like theres something more wrong with me than just my memory loss. like i have an anxiety disorder too, …can’t it all just link up together? or are they separate problems?
This is why you should see a doctor. You might have to see more than one to make sure they diagnose you with the right diagnosis or whatever. Because you dont want to just be taking any old pill that make you worse than you were before.
I dont want it to continue…
I guess the next time i talk to my doctor i’ll tell her about this. Usually when i go to the doctor its for a certain problem and i forget about all the emotional and mental things, just the physical.
and no, i get completely what youre saying. i have friends that make up disorders and things like that, scapegoats or whatever.
…They only wish they had a problem…
my condolences go out to you. I’ve had both of those problems all my life or at least the portions of it that I can remember. I will not say that it is exactly similar but it is close.
Just a little curious question though, Do you drink caffeine? and if so how much normally?
RogadeTicon wrote: my condolences go out to you. I’ve had both of those problems all my life or at least the portions of it that I can remember. I will not say that it is exactly similar but it is close.
Just a little curious question though, Do you drink caffeine? and if so how much normally?
i rarely drink caffeine. maybe one coke every week?
I have theory and understand it may not apply to you.
From what I understand of how caffeine works, it effects your mind’s ability to focus and process. It actually speeds it up (that is what a stimulant does). Well long term use of it and body gets used to having it (thankfully caffeine is mild so it isn’t a need). When you don’t have caffeine it is harder to do some of the things you’ve done on caffeine. You’ll feel sluggish and distant. Sometimes your mind my completely shut out something randomly. you won’t remember it and don’t understand it.
My thoughts are kind of jumbled and I am no physician, so anyone can refute this but I think I’m right. Sorry if this doesn’t help.