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I feel real bad right now, I don’t know why excatly now.

I feel from time to time really sad and maybe suicidal, because many bad things happened to me. I had a really good time in the last weeks abroad and now I am alone at home, there is nobody. I don’t have a girlfriend, not many friends, no siblings, my parents are in another country. BTW Im 22. I don’t know to who I should turn too. I will get expelled from college if I fail again. I am usually not depressed, only sometimes I fall in a deep black hole. Sometimes I would just like to run away from everything and start a new life in a different place, that is totally new to me and where nobody knows me. I’m not sure about anything. I don’t know what I want. I can’t follow through with things. I’m invisible to most people and I even try to keep it that way. I feel I wasted so much time of my life I dont know where to start catching up with everything. My physical health is unstable. I was in Emergency a couple of times this year. I think a girlfriend could help me get out of my situation, but I can’t sustain a relationship. I am not self-assure and I think any girl would avoid a wreck like me. I would avoid such a girl myself. I dont know what to do. I dont want to drag on. I hope this wasnt to pathetic.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (4 minutes after post)

god id love. no matter how horrible these seem to be, please be aware that it is not at all what god has in store for you. when you can lift your thought out of the muddy waters, so to speak and realize all the good god gives you every second of everyday, you will see that you have a purpose and that god is guiding you always and in all ways.
please access this site and read this book. it helped me and i guess you could even say it saved my life…all is well and god IS love!

http://www.spirituality.com/dt/toc_sh…

cathryn

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (5 minutes after post)

Do not do it. It will pass. Don’t give up on yourself.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (9 minutes after post)

Try to meet new ppl, make friends at college, do something somewhere were you can meet new ppl…

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (56 minutes after post)

Those sound like symptoms of bi-polar disorder…something I am all too familiar with. You’re grown. You are going to have to get used to being on your own. It’s just soemthing you have to deal with. You can’t turn to your parents for everything now. It’s unacceptable and unhealthy. But you can call them and anyone else you love to have someone to talk to.

Stop worrying about trying to get a girlfriend. You will get one eventually. Focus on school, get through it, then worry about that stuff. You are very young like myself. You will be fine.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (1 hour, 57 minutes after post)

At the risk of appearing too simplistic: “An educated person should never be bored.”

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (19 hours, 38 minutes after post)

Therapy really really helps. I have had therapy with 2 people and it made a big difference. I moved from my country that’s why I changed the first. I also know other people who are either stuing or working in the pshihology field and they have also had very positive impact on me.

I too suffer from depression now, and I am in therepay now and taking anti-depressants. My therapist is on vacation and I have been suicidal for the last 2 days. I am waiting for her to return. I just started and she had vacation..

Really, just try, what’s there too lose? See somebody, open up, whatever you feel. I wish you good luck!

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (1 day, 4 hours after post)

I feel like this periodically. The only way for me to break the cycle is to go on anti depressants. My psychology prof also introduced our class to these wonderful videos on Youtube that actually do make you relax. I believe they are called hypnotherapy. Just search stress or relaxation. I thought it was a bunch of crap until I realized how strangely happy I suddenly felt… Anyway, you could also try a university counseling center if your’s has one.

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