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I feel like everyone has an conspiracy going against me…
I feel that the people I know, think I did something that I didn’t, and they are playing it off like someone else did it, and keeping me out of the loop…that they think I did it.
First things first, I didn’t do what they thought I did, but the way I’ve been acting makes it seem that way…I think they think I did something, but I didn’t, and that they are out to get me. I don’t know how to make it look like I didn’t do it cause I’m so scared because I don’t want to be blamed for it. There’s only 2 people to blame, and I didn’t do it, but the other person is saying he didn’t do it either, but the way I think I’ve been acting makes it seem like I did it, which I didn’t….
If anyone understands what the hell I’m saying…
And if your reading this, and you know who this is, I didn’t do anything.
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Well I do have Bi-Polar disease but I didn’t know it’d be this bad…I mean they are all bad people I guess haha. So it’s possible, thats what scares me…
I think I have MAD Paranoia to…I’m paranoid all the time…it sucks so bad. The only time I’m not is when I’m not with them, which makes it seem like I’m hiding something, and I’m not…I feel like they helped trick me into this weird world…cause I believe things easily.
they’re not all bad people.
most of them aren’t.
i think you should seek help beyond help.com.
I wish I could afford it.
do you go to school?
No, but I work my *** off…which is another thing that takes up my time. I’m just tryin to get my life striaght, but I feel as though I’m trying at a REALLY bad time.
I think I know what you mean.
You mean that if someone does something to you like push you and keep on doing it, then you get mad and push them back. Then everyone gets mad at you that you pushed him and everyone get angry with you because apparently it’s not as funny if you do it.
Is it something like that?
what do you think people are going to blame you for?
Kinda in a way….
Uh…well…This guy got turned in, cause I smoke weed haha funny that, but I quit basically. Anyways he got turned in and it was either me or this other kid…and I didn’t do it, but I don’t think he did it either at the same time, but then him and his friends may be lying to me as well…
is it like::
i didn’t steal the apple.
but people think i stole the apple, and if i try to act like i didn’t, it might be more suspicious because that’s what i would do if i stole the apple?
Yea thats basically it.
but I feel that they are hiding it from me cause I can believe things pretty easily…
thanks, littlenick? :O
why do you care if they think you did it if you know you didn’t?
Cause I could get jumped by about 15 people, or get shot…that’s why.
Can you avoid them.
Well he was a seller who got busted, in jail so I mean yea…not just weed, but getting turned in…
And kinda, but I mean I don’t want it to look more like I did it…I’ve been avoiding them only cause I have work and stuff and well kinda cause of all this, I mean we all be through a lot I guess, and this is the first thing thats ever happened on this level. Plus the other guy is getting looked for.
are you guys all friends or something?
Well I mean yea, but like I’ve explained before I also had another fear that they only kept me around to **** with me cause I believe pretty much anything…I feel like I’m just retarded and don’t know whats really going on…I guess, or I realized it to late?
are you sure that there are only two people it could’ve been?
couldn’t it have been a neighbor or another buyer?
Thats what I’m thinking… I havn’t talked to them since they got busted so I dunno whats going on… they call everyone I know all the time except for me.
Atleast thats what i’m being told.
I dunno I mean I guess I could deal with it, if they ever came to do anything to me, but I know by doing anything it would just make it worse…I dunno I’m paranoid out of my mind, and I want it to stop haha. I hate being such a *****.
maybe you should find something else to distract yourself from the problem..it sounds like your situation is really overwhelming you.
is there anywhere you could go to get away?
no not really…i wish
no family you could stay with?
not really they live in diff states
you could ask them if you could come to visit them.
Yea…I guess I mean If they are doing anything I’ve already looked suspicious enough, and they havn’t done anything yet…so I dunno.
right; just tell them that you’re going for a trip for a little bit and if you can help find whoever did it before you leave you will.
Yea…I have 2 friends that I trust…they are the only ones though…and I don’t even trust them that well, but still I trust them. I would talk to them about it, but nah I don’t trust them that much.
I dunno, I seriously feel like I’m driving my self crazy, the only time I’m at peace is working/play guitar…that’s it.
I have an idea what you’re talking about. Your’s is on a lower scale than mine, mine is involves state sponsored induced paranoia. Do you have the faintest idea of how it is when a whole community shuts you out and systematically tries to alter you’re character.
Please let me know if I hit a spot.
Haha yes you did…I feel like almost everyone in my town is against me now…I can’t really trust anyone, and it’s rather annoying because all of my paranoia’s are completely plausible….thats what I hate about it…if they were to far-fetched to be considered real, then I would notice that, but they are completely plausible in that aspect, and it’s annoying to deal with it.
Funny isn’t it. And yes you are right I can explain and see it, it is real. So how long has this been going on and how are you dealing with it, cos it’s really messing me up and people got to know about it through one of my failed relationships and they have labelled me a nut case.
Well if you look at my post, “I need help with something…” thats where everything went wrong….and I started becomming paranoid.
when you trusted someone,eh!
so how do you cope?
Dude….I don’t even know….If I did I could tell you. I’ve thought about Suicide SO many times; and how it would be more rewarding the living this ****** up life I have.
ok, why don’t we help each other, the damage is already done and I’ll be damned if I kill myself because of a bunch of selfish assholes
well see, what you don’t understand is that, these selfish assholes can take my life, without going to jail….if that helps.
I know they can, I used to think about suicide too, but I just imagined the glee on their faces when they could see that I was hurt.’yeah! we got you there’.
Some,well, the ones I know I have confronted and their responses are all the same’who’s disturbing you?, you need to see a shrink, cos you are mad’.
I have learnt to ignore them now, and have avoided seeing a psychitrist, but I have pondered over this for years and I have come up with one conclusion.
We are up against a collective and our only weakness is that we have no one to rely on, I know that if I stepped outside or talked and confieded in you I would be alright, but I have lived on my own for about three years now. I only need someone , just one person to cofirm my views, and you sir did that for me this morning, so I ‘d die before I let you kill your.
Remember the movie I AM LEGEND
are you in trouble with organized crime
Just talk to them like regular, and tell them the truth as to why you have been acting wierd. If you act like you did it they might begin to wonder if it was you.
Nope ! that was about 3 or 4 years ago, when I gave a s**t.
Thanks for the post, but I do not need anyone to look at me in the right way.
Rather, I could give them advice when they find themselves in my shoes.
You are very late, Sir. Seems like I can handle myself now.
SirShippedandShaped Dude, Chill There’s nothing wrong with you! You’re right in everything you’re thinking. They want you to second guess yourself. Don’t let them break you down.
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