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I told a friend I love her
I have been friends with a girl for 3 years and we have become closer the last 10 months. Actually she is not only a friend but a co-worker too, although we work at very different departments and we are not so close at work. So our contact was mainly as friends and not only for work issues. We have been talking almost every day, I have helped her with some problems, she has also helped me and we are seeing each other almost every day.
Lately I have been developing feelings for her and I wanted her to be more than a friend. I was lately saying to her that I care about her, that I could do a lot of things for her and she was accepting it. Sometimes we were telling jokes, laughing together and we had a nice time being together.
I am sure that I love her, I can’t imagine her living with someone else, I can’t imagine me living with another woman and I am thinking of her every moment.
Everyday these feelings were becoming stronger, till I could not keep them hidden anymore. I asked some friends and everyone told me that I should tell her, but without pressure and without asking her to reciprocate. So, last night I took the big step and sent her a message (don’t blame me for the message, I’ll explain later why I used text instead of face to face contact) saying that there is something that I want to tell her but it is not so easy and I have been keeping it secret for many days now. And that if I kept it always as a secret it would be a weight on me forever. She replied asking what is it. Then I told her that I care about her so much, like I do for myself, that I didn’t ask her to feel the same and that I just wanted her to know. I also said not to feel uncomfortable with what I said and that I love her no matter how she is. Finally, I wrote that the message was not a correct way but I didn’t know when I would have the opportunity to tell her face to face being alone only the 2 of us (she works for the early morning till late night every day).
Today, 24 hours later she has not replied yet. No message saying anything like “thank you” or “I see you as a friend”, just no reply. And here start my questions: Do you think that I should call her or send another message, or should I keep waiting? I thought about sending another message today saying that I still believe what I said, I didn’t overact and that I adore her. Should I do it or it will be a bad move? I have a fear that if I text or call her so quickly she may think that I put pressure on her to get a reply and I don’t want it. I know her very well, she hates when people put pressure on her for any issue.
Do you think that she may need time to think about what I wrote? Do you believe that it was a correct move to say to her what I feel or I should have kept hidden my feelings?
Could this have ruined our friendship? I hope no, since I said that I didn’t ask her to feel the same for me and I said that I just wanted her to know.
Sorry for the long post and for asking so many questions, but I am a bit confused.
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