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aww!

i know it is bad right now, but keep your chin up!
something good will come your way.
and please, dont kill yourself.
no matter how bad life seems, that will not help!
i’m here for you!!

girl pick up and move on. it sounds like a good time to start new in a new area. all you need is when applying for a job write down a homemaker till recent to eliminate the negative blemish. or have a friend cover for you. there is always things to do to get around the issue. at least then you will be able to get a job even if it might be at entry level pay

berta wrote:
girl pick up and move on. it sounds like a good time to start new in a new area. all you need is when applying for a job write down a homemaker till recent to eliminate the negative blemish. or have a friend cover for you. there is always things to do to get around the issue. at least then you will be able to get a job even if it might be at entry level pay

I TOTALLY AGREE. Let me tell you? There are people out there who have had it worse. But they manage to make it through. I know it’s hard, especially with your husband betrayal w/that b**** of a boss. And your daughter’s “perceived” lack of loyalty. (Now consider, your daughter is young and selfish, probably. She’s not factoring in your actions in connection with your feelings. Don’t take this personally, please.) But pick up your self-esteem and do something to make yourself feel beautiful, worthy and STRONG again. Moving on sounds like a good idea. For a little while. Just so you can get some space and gather strength. In nature, when animals have been wounded. They limp off their own respective, SECURE caves and nurse themselves back to health. Do this for yourself. But always keep in mind, that you WILL return if you need to. Don’t run, out of FEAR. But do run if you think it will be beneficial for you. And that’ is what you will be doing. Take some time for yourself. And the biggest plus that you have? You have a Masters, darling! You are definitely hirable material! It’s just THAT YOUR SELF-ESTEEM has been hurt, that you are BLIND TO THIS. Take a deep breath, meditate, take a mini-vacation and nurse yourself back to health. And then, start typing up those resumes and projecting out to everyone, “I am Strong. I may be able to be knocked down, But I WILL STAND UP AGAIN.” Prospective Employers will pick up on that, and want a person like that around. Good Luck! I believe in you!

Girl do not let that man get you down and if your family wants to take his side let them just move on and prove them all wrong.Try moving to a different state and do not use him as a reference at your other jobs you are trying to get and if you do tell them not to contact him.If he wants to act like a child let him but you keep you chin up and move on.You say your daughter moved out is she 18 now or did she move in with her dad and she is under 18.If she is under 18 fight him to see her if she is 18 call her spend time with her but regardless of her age never bad mouth him in front of her she will hate you for that she will learn how he is on her own.

Look I am glad to be divorced, no matter how bad things are, they are better than they were with him! I just want him out of my life . . . And I just can’t understand how MY family in Florida and Phoenix can side with HIM and socialize with my ex-husband and his adulterous (my ex boss) trollop. She destroyed her family as well as the two of them destroying mine and now those two low lifes sit in my brother’s home and break bread, yet my brother has not spoken to me since my husband left. My ex ruined my credit, stole deductions and put my house in forclosure, my daughter and I had no money for food or hot water for months, while he was jetting off to see HER. I DID NOTHING TO HIM DAMMIT I WAS THE VICTIM HERE! They were calling me all hours of the night and hanging up, she was emailing me like we were friends, it was like the twilight zone. We were NEVER friends, she was a backstabbing ***** and everyone at the company disliked her. I had no respect for her as my boss and avoided her as much as possible. But I got past all that, changed my phone number, email and got restraining orders on the BOTH of them because of all their harassment. I WAS TRYING TO PUT IT ALL BEHIND ME. Life was getting better and then he started harassing me through the courts, I had to sign THE SAME quit claim deed FIVE times and then the court ordered me to pay HIM for his travel time. Thank God he lives more than 100 miles away in Phoenix! I am afraid to answer my door in fear of the NEXT process server.

I was a district manager when I worked for her 3 years ago, but I AM A TEACHER by profession . . . I am state licensed, there is no way around my previous male employer who did not renew my contract and then went to my next employer and got me fired. I no longer have health care (cobra ran out), I am 48 and I am bipolar, arthritic and diabetic. I no longer have access to the meds I need. NOW my ex is trying to take my home . . . cause I cannot get the loan in my name. NO GOOD JOB, NO CREDIT = NO LOAN! And yet my brother spends Labor Day and now his birthday with THEM. I have not seen my nephew in 3 years, but SHE has, how humiliating!

My daughter is living with her boyfriend, she will be 18 in February. He lied to her about so much, even said he would come get her for a week and then didn’t several times, she was all packed and waiting when he called and said he was not coming, she was 15 then. They even lied to her about my bosses name for 18 months, so she would not know. My daughter was furious to find out that her Dad’s new girlfriend was my ex boss and they lied to her for so long, she felt so betrayed. I didn’t even know or care that he was still seeing her . . . THEY were the ones who told our daughter and then SHE started with the sarcastically friendly emails. He is her father I do not impede their relationship or lack of one. My daughter told me she feels replaced. He has a new family, my ex boss has a daughter our daughter’s age. He has not even sent our daughter a card for her last 3 birthdays or christmas. Yet she saw all the gifts the trollop’s daughter got in pictures on his myspace. I love my daughter and see her regularly, she got tired of the police and process servers coming by, the uncertainty of our finances. She is mature for her age, has a job, is a good student and college bound.

I just feel all alone with no hope in sight. I want my family to stop calling me, blaming me cause my daughter does not want to see him. I AM just trying to MOVE ON but he and my family just keep dragging me back in . . . if they would ALL just leave me alone. My brother is really so stupid, every time they get together my ex husband sends me pictures . . . seems to me he is being USED just to get at me! It works . . . it hurts so bad, that I am abandoned and he is so devious and NONE of them see it. That’s why I would rather not talk to them . . . what’s the point? I just want to be left alone . . .

Anonymously,

I read every single word of your post. I heard you. Everything you wrote was not wasted. Your husband sounds vindictive, selfish and he doesn’t even take care of his own. That’s sad. And it’ll be even sorry to see how this ends up for him in the long run. As for your brother and daughter? Try not to let your heart become embittered or hurt. Protect it but still be there for them. Maybe not now, but later, everyone will the truth. They’ll appreciate you for your love. & Hopefully forgive him for his weakness. You are strong. Hang in there. Credit is negligible but it sucks that it’s been ruined the way it was. Look at all the good things you have, your degree? Your life….your future? Sit down w/a good cup of tea and relax. Find some solace in the small things in life. Things that give you a moment of pause and peace. It’ll be ok. Just keep on posting. We’re here for you.