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Thank you. :)
I’ve heard that it isn’t good to bottle up your feelings, so I just came on here and started typing.
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Oh, that is clever.
I’ll have to remember it!
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well, this certain person told me herself that she was NOT glad you are moving away.
she told me that a certain someone said that, and it was convenient for you to believe that certain someone, she was glad to move away.
now, i know you guys have drama… but really. you have to think about this. do you really believe she’d be HAPPY that you are going to move away?
if that answer is yes, then you shouldn’t even listen to what other people say. because all that matters is what you think. if you really believe she is happy that you are moving away, then that is what you think. nobody can change that. but if someone tells you something like that, and even if “they wouldn’t lie about this kind of thing”, how would you know? yeah, you trust them, but you can’t be like that, because that’s how you lose friends.
And really, if this is all really bothering you, then YOU need to make the decision YOURSELF. DO NOT LET OTHERS MAKE THAT DECISION.
hopefully, if you say no to that question, then you can trust,[TRUST] that that person would never EVER say ANYTHING like that no matter what. you can’t get something like that get in the way of a friendship, whether she’s dating the boy you like or anything like that.
after all, you do need to find out who you do and do not trust, and just be careful about what you say around them so they don’t get the wrong idea.
bleh. im tired after all this typing xD…
i hope this helps SOME. :)
yo BFF, heather.
please talk to me again D:
Hm. I don’t think it was convenient for me to believe that. It wasn’t only one person who told me, but two people at different times. And what makes me not know what to believe is that nobody would make something like that up unless they were really messed up.
And even if she was happy, I’d understand. I’m not expecting everyone to love me or anything.
Disregarding any ‘drama’ in the past, I still wouldn’t know what to believe. I’ve had several instances like this in years before this. So, I guess, I still don’t know how to react. I don’t know what to believe.
I would never let some boy get in the way of my friendship, whether I’m in love with him or not. But hearing something like the above, then yeah, that could get in the way of a friendship. Because if I don’t know what to believe, then (and I’m not saying this is true) for all I know our friendship could just be built on lies.
I do need to find out who I can trust or not.
“if you are going ot do this, and dont even ask me what, dont talk to me….” - I took that to heart, btw.
kim, again. wrote:
“if you are going ot do this, and dont even ask me what, dont talk to me….” - I took that to heart, btw.
i am devoting my whole post to this.
okay. so i will not spare yours or my feelings, and i am going to tell you the straight up truth.
well, i was mad in the first place because you wouldn’t answer a petty question about that wig… you wouldn’t even tell me. i took THAT close to heart. it made me think i wasn’t even that good of a friend for you to even tell me the simplest thing having to do with your hair. and, you lied. you said “i got it done today” and so i believed you. i only found out when other people commented on it and when terri told me when i figured out that it was a wig. and i was so mad. i thought i was important. yes all of your questions are important, but some annoy me, when the way you phrase them seem to me like you just want to know instead of helping me in the end. and i guess you thought this question annoyed you, but i still was mad.
and i was getting tired of those petty little arguments we have over the internet, so i freaked out and told you not to talk to me. i didn’t mean it like this, though. i was just really frustrated and lost my mind. what is weird id that when we are face-to-face, we barely disagree. that is why i do not like the internet.
i see your replies to my comments and compare them to say, christina’s or jenny’s or jazmyne’s, and i feel so… unimportant in a way that i dont matter to you at all. i mean, ive been really depressed lately, for more than just these two, and i just looked at all of the bad things. i really can tell that some of my friends could care less about why im depressed, and i thought you cared. i know you do, but i kept thinking to myself “nobody cares. nobody. i can’t impress anyone. not even myself.” i want to disappear with out a trace just so i can see how my friends react. im that desperate. and really, i don’t know why i said that. well, i do. but it was stupid and worthless and not meant for you to take seriously. but i see you did, which is natural, probably, but still. i cannot be overwhelmed anymore than i am now. because yesterday, the first day you started ignoring me, i went on the bus, cried. i went home, cried. i took a 5 hour nap and then woke up with no spirit. i went to bed, crying. i woke up, crying. i hope this isn’t affecting me like it affects you. because then this would be disaster. now, i just spent ten minutes typing this, i want you to sleep on whether or not something stupid i say over the internet really can make you ignore me like this and make me depressed like a mofo. thank you for reading this, and i don’t really want to see a reply to this. well, i do. but just your decision, not your take on this situation. i need no more remorse or guilt.
hmm, you dont have to be my bff.
i just want you to acknowledge me.
because this is hurting me too much, and it doesn’t seem worth it.
oh, and im really, really, really, sorry i ever said that and im sorry that i hurt your feelings.
I just have to say something though that I think you misunderstood: I posted that picture as a joke. I wanted to see how many people would think it was real. And I never once lied to you in my answers. I never said that it wasn’t a wig. And I never said “I got it done today.” I said “I got it today.” It, meaning the wig.
And, no, you don’t answer all of my questions. Sometimes you avoid them or just ignore them all together.
And getting THAT mad at me for not answering whether my hair was straightened or not kind of made me mad at you.
About the way I phrase my questions: I ask because I want to know what is going on in my friends’ lives. Most of my friends NEVER tell me unless I ask or hear it from someone else. And sometimes they still don’t tell me when I do ask. Yeah, I do want to help if there is a problem. And if something good happened then I want to be happy with them. But the problem is is that they never tell me. So, yeah, I do want to know what is happening. And if I can’t know what is gonig on, then what kind of friendship is that?
And it isn’t that I am ignoring you. You haven’t said anything to me, and because you said you don’t want me to talk to you, then okay. I won’t talk to you.
Hm..and I’m not sure what my ‘decision’ is. I mean, just because I want something won’t mean you want it. And friendship has to work both ways or it will mean nothing at all.
But I guess that’s all I should say.
i guess we’ll be mad at each other for the rest of my teenage life, then.
If that’s what you want and how you feel, then okay. Not much I can really do to change that.
ahhh! no. you posted RIGHT before i was just about to post after the one before that one, and so it sounds wrong. [that last one.]
what i was going to say after your previous post,
is that is not how i feel, in don’t WANT that to happen. but you said you didn’t really make a decision, so i guess you don’t want to be my friend.
and i thought i said i needed no more REMORSE or GUILT. thanks, kim.
thats why im D-E-P-R-E-S-S-E-D.
do you really care about that?
You really don’t think I care about you? Is that how I come off as?
If I didn’t care about you, I wouldn’t still be talking to you right now. If I didn’t care about you I would have walked away long before this without a second glance back.
oh, i know you care about me. i was talking about that specific thing.
I figured it was fair enough for me to say my side if you say yours.
yeah, thats true… well, i think this is all really stupid and its all my fault.
ALL. i take ALL of the blame. i was stupid and overreacting. i can;t believe myself. can we get over it? i even exlained everything? are we cool? well, of course we’re cool, [lol xD] but friends, at LEAST?
wow. way too many typos D:
don’t take all the blame, because we both know that isn’t true. **** (pardon.), i could have answered the question. don’t know why i didn’t.
xD wow.
friends works.
well… thanks, kim! i kinda didn’t like taking all the blame anywaysss… it was my fault i freaked out though, it was equally our faults.
yay! i miss riding in the car with you DD:
yeah, you didn’t know? they ttly censor it, which is retarded, but thanks for expressing your feelings. :D
so i can ride in the car with you tomorrow?
I don’t see why you can’t. :O
Make sure you come early though.
And, besides, we’ve still got your toothbrush. o.o
like how early? 6:30? or 6:40?
ahaha! i forgot where i ahd put it, but at least i had an extra one xD;
hm, i’d say about 6:40-ish. x)
haha wow
Ignorance and Hypocrisy are two of my least favorite things. ]:
Mine too. /:
But, nothing anyone can do about it and life goes on, so!! (:
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Ignorance and Hypocrisy are two of my least favorite things. ]:
Oh, it’s mine too! What a coincidence! (:
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Okay, so, obviously you and me are not getting along right now. So, wouldn’t it make life easier if you just didn’t comment on anything of mine?
Is it REALLY necessary for you to do that?
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