Man Trouble…
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When I was younger I was with a boy who cared for me a lot. We had a stupid relationship as most young teens do; we would show off and compete at everything. We are both very strong minded Leos and would argue about trivial things but it was what we did and we loved each other with a passion. We were the kind that would push each other, just for fun, to see how far you could push before the other breaks. We did it in a fin way not nasty and were way ahead of our years but it was first love for both of us, after a year of dating we ended up taking different paths, he moved, my parents split up so we moved and we both made new friends. We still talked, he was always there for me, and we both still had feelings for each other. Time moved on I started seeing someone else and years rolled by, the person I was seeing moved in with me and my family but still I turned to my first love, he seemed to provide me with everything I needed. I never physically cheated on the person I was living with, but emotionally I guess I wasn’t there.
Anyway I moved on and more time went by, the person I was living with for a year moved out after I decided that I couldn’t live someone when in my mind I was replacing them with someone else. I had a few meaningless relationships that were short-lived but my mind never wondered far form my first love and how much he still means to me. Every week or so I would get a message asking how I was or what I was up to, we never met up because normally one of us was with a partner and it was just not right. Then I met my Ex, he was a friend of a friend, a real bad boy, you know the ones with the flashing red lights above his head saying DO NOT GO HERE! But I did and then my first love came back and wanted to try again, so me being the fool that I am stayed with the bad boy and told my first love that I just couldn’t do it, it told me I led him on and that he would never speak to me again, and I cried for days, I knew I made the wrong choice and I had to live with it. I ended up head over heels in love with the bad boy, until he cheated and left me, twice.
I picked myself back up and carried on with life and then got a message from my first love to invite me for a drink with him, we ended up drunk at his and sleeping together, this being the first time seeing as we were so young before. It was goooood :-). We stayed in contact still and even though I knew I wanted more he was not too sure so I left it and met someone else but again I just couldn’t get him out of my head, now I’m single and I just know that this man who I met years and years ago is there to complete my life and I just can’t do anything about it, even though he is seeing someone, I still get messages from him and I just feel like I’m stuck in a rut! Help!
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