Thanks narg, this is amazing! :) x
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Good luck with…
Ask help to Dr. Awesome if you’ve more problems ;)
I’m a self-injurer. I will do my best to make it to Sunday!
anothernikki wrote:
I’m a self-injurer. I will do my best to make it to Sunday!
Yay! :D
The idea is just to think of everyone on here, and all to pull together to get through these two days
i want to join in on this!
2heap wrote:
i want to join in on this!
Feel free! The more the merrier :)
Welcome guys…
For the next two days i’ll be thinking of you all ok? And i want you to post on here if you have any problems!
narg2 wrote:
For the next two days i’ll be thinking of you all ok? And i want you to post on here if you have any problems!
Well, you msy regret that at some point … :)
I will not regret it Bookworm, i want to get as many people as possible off this… Two days. We can all do this.
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Good luck guys! I’ll drink to this! Cheers!
narg2 wrote:
Thank you!
I second that thanks!
Sir James wrote:
Good luck guys! I’ll drink to this! Cheers!
Thank you too Sir James!
:D anytime! You people deserve it. ;)
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This is just a trial, but if its sucessful for people we might set up a more regular thing, encouraging people to fight the triggers for longer… You think that could work?
I think it could work, definitely. And if it’s not successful for everybody, there is nothing to stop us trying again and carrying on anyway.
True. And to be honest I would be over the moon if it helped just one person… And i’m determined to make that one person you Bookworm! *gives supportive hug* Come talk to me anytime!
Thanks *hugs back* Of course I’ll talk to you anytime, and there’s here too … I’m hoping it will all go ok :)
my support has shown up. lol. here i am, if any of you need me, my heart is open for the day. mwah!! i am trying to stop drinking, one day at a time as well, the two addictions are closely related. good luck!!
I think if you all make it to Sunday without self-harming, you’ve done REALLY well. Like you said, afterwards you can try and go a bit longer. Remember though even if you do break, not to let it bring you down. It’s just a small bump on your road to success.
I’ll try to offer as much support to you if I can. :)
I am pleased that you guys have all come together to support each other in this challenge. I hope that it gets easier to stop and becomes a new force of habit.
Ja, me too… I actually tried this method with another friend of mine… It stopped working because he lost internet acess and we couldn’t talk anymore, but hes getting it back in a few weeks, so that will help from my side. As well as having Dr Awesome of course, hes done so much for me. :)
But I’m hoping that this will offer some support to others in the position of trying to stop. Sunday is the target, and i want to help as many people as possible make it!
(I’m getting all enthusiastic here lol)
im always here for any of you guys, Narg2 will tell you all i give the best hugs, heres one for you all *Group hug*
I’m joining! I hate wanting to self harm, and this wont stop me from wanting to, but may help in stopping me from doing anything. I like this post a lot because it’s such a dismal topic, yet it has such a lively and happy atmosphere to it, not as depressing this way.
An awesome idea, I find it’s much easier to accomplish thing when we work together. Best of luck to all =)
Get some help for self harm. Talk to a counselor! Talk to someone! But talk! Don’t stay silent and do more harm to yourself! In the end the only one who loses and ends up hurt and harmed is you!
Ja, Dr Awesome = Best Hugs Ever, I fully plan to exhaust his supply of them tonight!
Grayson, thank you, I would hope that its a good atmosphere for people to talk if they need to :)
((((((((HUGS))))) Prayers to you and others.. Good Luck :D
Best of luck to everyone, I’m joining right now.. hope to keep it up. *hugs for all*
Thanks all for your support. It really does mean a lot to us! :) x
can i ask, what are you going to do instead of cutting?
Sherooo wrote:
can i ask, what are you going to do instead of cutting?
Eat ice cream!
no i mean, you cant just replace a frequent adrenaline rush with nothing.
do you not have anything to replace it with, that won’t cause you harm?
Sherooo wrote:
can i ask, what are you going to do instead of cutting?
Maybe you could try some sort of energetic activity. Maybe try running or some sort of exercise.
elysium wrote:
Sherooo wrote:
can i ask, what are you going to do instead of cutting?
Maybe you could try some sort of energetic activity. Maybe try running or some sort of exercise.
thats what i was gonna suggest :)
Sherooo wrote:
elysium wrote:
Sherooo wrote:
can i ask, what are you going to do instead of cutting?
Maybe you could try some sort of energetic activity. Maybe try running or some sort of exercise.
thats what i was gonna suggest :)
We can share the praise! :D
At the minute I have nothing to replace it, so I’m basically going for it.
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bookworm16 wrote:
At the minute I have nothing to replace it, so I’m basically going for it.
Going for what?
Throwing everything into stopping…
That’s good to know. I have this image in my head of everyone returning to this post on Sunday and replying stating that they have made it without self harming. Oh it will be a time to celebrate.
elysium wrote:
That’s good to know. I have this image in my head of everyone returning to this post on Sunday and replying stating that they have made it without self harming. Oh it will be a time to celebrate.
I wouldn’t get out the party poppers just yet. It’s only Friday :)
Just imagine how you are going to feel though on Sunday when you do. I bet you’ll all be over the moon.
AnotherNikki, Bookworm, Narg, 2Heap, Grayson, everyone else: How are you doing today?
I am doing ok … haven’t done anything yet anyway. :)
That’s good, bookworm. Well done. :)
hope everyone is cut-free and lovin it. just because tomorrow is the deadline, doesnt mean you have to start again tomorrow. try to push it back another 3 or 4 days!!! Its beautiful today here in michigan…mwah to you all********************************
Narg2: Hey guys I’m posting from Dr Awesomes house… I have to admit it was slightly to my advantage, I was set up to spend the weekend with Josh, which obviously helps my triggers… I so far haven’t had to replace any, but I know how difficult it can be, just try thinking of us all here being behind you.
Good luck for the last night guys!
Narg2: I made it! *dances* Feeling pretty good now, just gonna take each day
How is everyone else??
Dr Awesome McCool wrote:
Narg2: I made it! *dances* Feeling pretty good now, just gonna take each day
How is everyone else??
Well done Narg2!
bookworm16 wrote:
I made it too :)
YAY!!! Well done!
Narg2: Well done bookworm, I’m so so happy for you!! *hug*
How do you feel now?
*cheers for Bookworm & Nargi* Just 8 more hours until it’s midnight, I’m doing ok (did have a tiny binge & purge to compensate, feel guilty about that). I want to change, I want to stop, so 8 more hours, that isn’t that long, I can do this.
Dr Awesome McCool wrote:
Narg2: Well done bookworm, I’m so so happy for you!! *hug*
How do you feel now?
Hah, well actually not too good. But I’m going to try and make it.
I think i didnt cut for 2 weeks now… Feel waaaay to down to do ANYTHING…including that… If i can any1 can… Before i did it daily… Now only have the urge daily
Well done for coming off it bleeding heart, your a good example for us :) Hopefully you will find some energy soon
Well done to everyone who has made it!
You are all awesome *hugs*
what do you do if you have random urges :/
Well I usually try to wait them out… Which can be very difficult, as the feeling builds up. I usually try to get ahold of some of my close friends and talk to them, to get my mind off it…
One thing that was recommended to me was to put an elastic band round your wrist and ping it, in theory that reduces tension, but does no lasting damage… Maybe some people could try it?
****…. I didn’t make it…… I wasn’t even thinking, I didn’t have a thought running through my mind other than how I felt so secluded from the world at the time, and…….
Grayson, it’s ok. You wanted to and you tried, maybe next try will go better - do you know why you felt so secluded and lonely again like a few days back? Does it help coming on here or should we maybe motivate you to go out there in the big world and make a new friend (which is more like a long term project unfortunatly people don’t come rushing by with things you can read about them, or a CV to check compatibillity) Anyway if you can come on here there’s always someone listening, alsways someone to talk to.
ps. *hug* for Bleeding Heart! *hugs* for all in the thread actually because you all spread so much positive energy! I did make it and now I’m obsessing about being fat, which I find so very boring because I keep hearing myself repeat the same nonsense. Wonder how 2heap and AnotherNikki are doing..
I’m struggling right this minute, but so far staying strong….
I’m so sorry Grayson, but don’t beat yourself up over it. Stay strong!!
Guys, look at yourselves… Your on here, your trying, thats the first step! If you don’t try, you have a 100% fail rate, if you do try, and make just one gain, beat just one trigger, then your getting somewhere! Now I don’t know everyones stories, I don’t know what makes you feel the way you feel, but each of you has that hope inside you that wants to stop, and so long as you have that, it is possible.
I hit a huge trigger last night, one that came without anything to provoke it, I was desprete not to, particularly after making the weekend… I have sleep meds, and took them to get away from it. I know that knocking myself out is not the right way to deal with it, but as a short term solution it worked.
Anyone who feels the need, send me a shout, I’ll put a link to my bebo on here for you too, so if anyone has that you can add me, and hopefully you can find me one of them if anyone needs someone to talk to.
http://www.bebo.com/Profile.jsp?Membe…
It’s Monday morning. I made it!!
Well done anothernikki *hugs* thats great, i’m so pleased for you!
*hug for anotherNikki* I’m so glad you made it :)
im very happy for everyone on here that made it. love you all.
Thanks! I’m feeling alright today, too. Yesterday was a big struggle. I was pretty down and feeling numb.
Well done anothernikki! *hug* :D
Woo Well done anothernikki, okay guys on three…1…2…3… *Group hug*
Relapsed.
*beats head against wall*
Don’t beat yourself up honey. It’s not easy to just stop. Hugs.
narg2 wrote:
Relapsed.
*beats head against wall*
Yeah, I have to second that! :(
bookworm16 wrote:
narg2 wrote:
Relapsed.
*beats head against wall*
Yeah, I have to second that! :(
I third it to
I’m stupid I thought that the back of my hand is a well hidden place lol
you guys made the goal, next step i think should be the same goal for next weekend. and hopefully you can all make it and then we can start looking at setting longer goals. it will take time and a lot of effort, but im more than confident that over time you guys can all accomplish it.
it will be difficult but in the end will it not be worth it?
this was only the first step and you guys will relapse a lot, the trick is to not get stressed about relapsing becouse it is going to happen. you all need to take each day as it comes and take it slow and easy together we can all beat this. we are all here for each other.
Did I make the goal though? 6pm Sunday … I don’t think that does make the goal …
bookworm16 wrote:
Did I make the goal though? 6pm Sunday … I don’t think that does make the goal …
i think it does. its along time to go without SH, you should be proud of that, but i think we will do it again this weekend and hopefully everyone can make it, then after that we can all decide on a slightly longer time.
Bookworm im Narg2’s boyfriend by the way, *waves* i know how much she struggles and it hurts me to know she feels she has to do this, but i will always be there for her, she knows this but she still doesn’t like to phone me up and talk to me if she hits a trigger, she has support but is reluctant to use it, please dont be reluctant to use this site whenever you hit a trigger, people will listen to you, talking it out often works the best.
Hehe, I know you’re her boyfriend!
Yeah, she’s really helped me so I’m trying to be there for her when she needs me too.
good. :) we have a nice little group forming here. just remember book worm keep a positive mental attitude, you’re awesome and you can beat this, just remember relapses will happen, that’s how you know your getting better the longer you go without a relapse the better you are getting at controlling it.
Im feeling so much like cutting my wrists now… Well kinda hard with no sharp objects close… :(
Woo for there not being sharp objects then
Why do you want to cut?
Flick yourself with an elastic band, punch a pillow, scream. anything!
I feel like it daily…For no reason at all… Just feel ******
Knowing I made the challenge feels good, but the temptation is still there. * sigh * I’m going to try and remain strong.
Grayson wrote:
****…. I didn’t make it…… I wasn’t even thinking, I didn’t have a thought running through my mind other than how I felt so secluded from the world at the time, and…….
Don’t let this get you down Grayson. Act like this event never happened. *smiles*
Congratulations everyone for doing so well. I think we need to decide now, when the next checkpoint is.
Ja, thats a good idea elysium…
What to people think is best? A wait for a few days, or just going straight back into it?
Well, how about starting now and trying to go until Friday? I’m only here to support you, so I think it’s up to you all to make the final decision.
friday, it is. im joining you all on this now, (with alcohol) …no drink til friday. maybe even longer, its scary to think about… especially with the liqour right in the freezer. good luck all.
Hopefully I’ll make it this time!
I’m trying to make it to friday, but honestly - I’m using way too may other forms to escape my feelings..
I’ve locked myself in my room from moday afternoon till yeasterday evening, just crying and sleeping - being confused about why it’s dark, why I’m alone, what I should be doing, why it’s so cold, why I feel people are going to murder me (oh paranoia, crap). I haven’t even written in my diary or done anything positively empowering. I want, I can, I am…. and all my mind could come up with was negative junk.
I haven’t harmed myself. Today I’ve changed bandages like every day from the burns I made wednesday the 24th and thursday the 25th september, they’re begining to have that nasty smell already. Disgusting. But I want to overdose, not to die, jsut to sleep, I already made my favourite icecream sprinkled with valium and lorazepam, when I woke up after cheanging the bandages the first thing I did was grab some more valium.. I haven’t used it in weeks/months but it feels so familiar, to have some control to feel a little better, to take some more and sleep for a while. Problem is I just can’t afford it, cost too much money and if I keep on going I’ll get addicted - another thing I can’t use.
Basicly I’m really inspired by how you’re all hanging on and keep trying, how you say caring words to eachother, I just can’t see past the fog I’m in. Because the docter says I’m fine, your physical pain is all in your head, my psychologist told me once more how everything is my responsebillity, how I have to find out what’s wrong & how to fix it. He also called me a borderliner, just because he found out I self harm, before he knew that he seemed to be taking me serious: talking about my anxeities, my panic attacks, my social life.. now I’m just “some borderliner” waste of time and space. He made me feel so low.
I wish you all well, you’re doing so great, every hour you make it I’m so proud of you all, bookworm, nargi, nikki, grayson, *00* with the liqour! You can do this, I have faith in you.
Yeah, well you can stop being proud. I screwed up again. I just can’t seem to make it to any target.
I’m so sorry bookworm and anothernikki. This is a difficult thing to do, so don’t feel TOO bad about it. Remember, it is at these moments where will probably want to give up the most. Stay strong and lets try for another target.
How did everyone else do?
Don’t worry about it if you don’t make it. Just set yourself a shorter target next time and increase each target a day at a time
I haven’t cut or burned so I guess I should feel proud.
The burns from last month are healing well - more damage then I thought, but I finally went outside once more to get the gauze with the ointment (that doesn’t grow into the wounds).
I’m actually happier about going outside then the not self-harming.
Well i failed everything…My arm is a comlete mess atm… Red and painfull… But all i want is to see blood… Not going so good…
*Bleeding_Heart* wrote:
Well i failed everything…My arm is a comlete mess atm… Red and painfull… But all i want is to see blood… Not going so good…
Make sure you keep your wounds clean and banaged up. Try not to worry about it too much (I know it’s hard). We’re here for you :)
I cant sleep without feeling the pain and seeing the blood… My skin is dry and it makes me annoyes cause its hard to cut it now… Still i wont stop till i see alot of blood… Im failing in living…
Make sure it is banaged up and if necessary, apply some cream to it. You need to try and stop. Maybe try getting rid of whatever you use to cut yourself. Try and do something to take your mind off it. Maybe have something to eat, take a shower, read or anything just to take your mind off it.
I’ve been having some thoughts about what everyone here is trying to do and I just want to check some things out. You don’t have to tell us but do you know what is was that caused you to start self-harming. Maybe we could try and find the actual source of the problem and see if there is anything that we can do to solve it.
Just trying to put some thoughts and ideas out on the table.
I dont know why i do it… And taking away doesnt help… If i feel like cutting i will just go and get a knive…or scissors… or anything that hurts
Can you remember when you started? Did anything bad happen or were you getting stressed over something? Maybe instead of cutting yourself, you could try something else that you enjoy. What do you like to do in you spare time?
first time was about 4 to 6 years back so i dont remember…but im stressing alot and always… I have a depression too so i enjoy nothing at all anymore…
If you don’t mind me asking, what is it that you stress over? Maybe you could try and find a way of taking a break from it. I know how it feels to be depressed. I never wanted to do anything and I just forgot about everything that I enjoyed. Maybe you could try something relaxing. Maybe try reading a good book or watching a good film.
I watch alot of movies…that helps but when its done im back into my downward spiral again… And i stress about school mostly… Probably will get kicked out because im hardly there cause the depression… Anyway ill try get some sleep
Ok. Make sure you get a good nights sleep. Goodnight :)
Thanks for trying to help everybody elysium! :)
YW I try my best to help. If I’m irritating anyone, just tell me to shut up. :D
Of course you’re not irritating, your helping us!
elysium thx for what u try… It didnt help i still did cut… Hard when the skin is so dry and agitated… Anyway i still, or again i really dunno, feel so bad… And because all this theres a 90% chance i also get kicked out of school… My day cant be worse…or shud i say my live cant be worse
Try your best to stay strong, BleedingHeart. Maybe you could use your school work to try and take your mind of everything.
I know this may be hard to understand, but look at it this way. A lot of self-harmers don’t talk about thier problem. Everyone here, has made that first step. You have talked about it and you want to try and get it sorted out. It’s progress (small, but it still means something). We need to make the second step now.
elysium wrote:
YW I try my best to help. If I’m irritating anyone, just tell me to shut up. :D
bookworm16 wrote:
Of course you’re not irritating, your helping us!
Agree, agree, agree!
I talk about it daily… Seeing a psychiatrist and take meds already…what more can i do?
What do you like doing? Are you musically inclined? Reading interests? What?
I cant read anymore cause my mind wonders off too much… I like to hear music but it makes me upset too at times… I dont like anything beside my animals
I love animals. What do you have? Dogs cata birds ?????
2 dogs…5 cats…1 guiney pig…1 hamster…5 turtles…1 rabbit…10 fish…and alot of birds ^^
Sorry to leave you guys, but I don’t think i’m welcome here… I am so sorry, i made a lot of mistakes, but i think its best if I head off quietly… Not making a post or anything, though I owe people an explaination, but I couldn’t leave you lot…
I am so sorry.
Good luck guys.
narg2 wrote:
Sorry to leave you guys, but I don’t think i’m welcome here… I am so sorry, i made a lot of mistakes, but i think its best if I head off quietly… Not making a post or anything, though I owe people an explaination, but I couldn’t leave you lot… I am so sorry.Good luck guys.
You are welcome here! What mistakes have you made? Are you ok?
Nargi, no need to apologize or any of that stuff - stay, please, you are welcomed here so don’t run away from here. I don’t think anyone minds if you for whatever made mistakes. Or that you were not here, there, where-ever the past week/days and feel like you owe us an explaination. It’s OK.
You don’t have to compulsively post to show you’re alive, to show you care, to support everyone. Yes, well I mean, worried a bit but life happens and we can’t control everything we want. So if someone is gone for a while, makes mistakes all I can do is hope for the best..
Are you coming back again someday? Why do you feel like you should go? (you don’t have to answer if you don’t feel like it)
I don’t belong here at all, but I stick it out!! you can do it honey!! What’s going on?
Apart from the trolls and REALLY abusive users, there isn’t anyone who doesn’t belong here. You are all great people who are welcome to this site.
i wana say wel done -
i stopped self harming in the ways of cutting a lil while ago - im covered in scars and still have my days where my depression will make me feel that all i need is to have that pain - i shrug it off and think of the better things that make me happy - focus on them like im gona avoid cutting to make those things easier - if that makes any sense and is any help - ur welcome
It ent easy but good luck to the lot og ya! :D
I didnt cut in 3 days…woooooooooooooooooooooo…
~*Bleeding_Heart*~ wrote:
i didnt cut in 3 days…WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO…Hope i can keep on like this
WELL DONE! I am so proud of you. :) You should treat yourself to something special. :)
ill just watch a movie and go sleep…thats enough for tonight for me… I didnt cut because today is my bf birthday so wanted to show him that i cud do it…
Well that’s good then. Try and see if you can this event to help you in the future. :)
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