maybe you could help me a touch.
dealing with a bit of grief.
a lot, for starters I used to homeless. I know I’m not now and am glad but there is more to it then that. Being homeless is not so bad on its own.
maybe u could give me advice ^^
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Raul wrote:
hi minnie.
yoyo! …i think im gonna go night night…here in italy its 11 38 pm…im dead x_x
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do you still want my advice
matt.jenn8 wrote:
do you still want my advice
yeah, and ill answer tomorrow..cuz i repeat..its late night night!
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lol, good night.
matt.jenn8 wrote:
do you still want my advice
I kinda do, even though I haven’t really said anything yet.
it is actually simpler than it sounds so far. you know everybody elses idea of what is exceptable, which is to live a certain way, you can have your home and your freemdom to. Just because you live in a house doesnt mean you have to conform to everything, what is really the problem
minnie explain more i can help more tomorrow of coarse!
when I was homeless I couldn’t talk to my family, had no friends, all that sad stuff, but a girl around my age found me. I was only around 15 or 16 at the time. She had very little as well but insisted on helping me and being a part of my life…
When I finally did accept her I was so happy. She was such an angel, we were together for a long time, but one day she left. Virtually vanished. I was so worried, but then she came back and tried to tell me gently that she wanted to be with a different guy. I worked hard to help her as much as she helped me, but he was rich. Begrudgingly I agreed thinking it would be better for her, but he rejected her and she became depressed.
More to come…
When this happened I tried everything I could to help her feel better. I knew it was never going to be the same but I cared about her so much, I had to try to help. For months she was indescribably sorrowful. She tried cutting herself and all sorts of crazy things. It hurt so bad to watch these things happen to her everyday. Then one day she seemed to snap out of it a little. She was still depressed but it felt better just knowing she had calmed down a little. Soon after she actually seemed happy again. I was so elated, but she disappeared again. By this time my situation had gotten quite a bit better, still poor, but much better. I worried for weeks, it drove me crazy. then one day i found out that she had killed herself,
i guess i should make this a post, but it was easier to say when some one invited to help.
I am sure that this is very difficult. Let me start by saying, that by putting her feelings and emotions in front of your own, showed her more than you will ever know how much you cared for her. more…
The time that you shared together made a huge impact on her, and this i guarentee, i have been suicidle before, and thank god for the one angel that helped me through. When she came back and let you know that she was with someone else, she cared enough for you to want your approval. At the same time, please do not blame yourself or feel like you need to be self destructive, because it was out of your hands. It is nothing you did. If anything it sounds like you were her one ray of hope. I am sorry that this happened. The best thing that you can do for her is remember her, not the bad poor times but the good times. the little things a smile the sun in her hair, and with that she will be remembered and find peace, and so will you. Love goes a long way it doesnt have to end here
im sitting in my laundry room crying right now. My life is in so many ways better than it was then, but not all. I scarcely ever stop thinking about her, im in my 20s now and have never been with another girl. I try very hard to be happy and all that, but it is so hard…
I have hallucinations of her sometimes, but they aren’t how I remember her. Its like she is is still alive and growing and in her 20s as well. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and possible schizophrenia. I just don’t know what to do…
Take care of yourself. As long as you are here and healthy, you are carrying her with you. It is tough to move on, but you can with out letting her go. there is enough room in your heart to keep her alive and still let some one else in. What you need is closure. As weird as it sounds you need to talk to her, and tell her how you feel. wether it is in a letter, flowers at a grave or through thoughts, wich she will still receive. find this closure, keep her with you , but your have inner peace
remeber like you care about her others care about you
thank you. I’ve spoken to a few people about it, but no one could say these things quite so peacefully as you just did. I try to deal with it every day, I don’t know if I will succeed any time soon. But thank you.
Thats all that you need to do. no one can handle a lifetime in a day. wake up in the morning and deceide how you want your day to be. have faith in yourself, she would not want you to go down the same path that she did, she would want your happiness, just as you wanted hers.
That will come through later.
Find happiness, and she will have happiness thru you
Is there any way i can be of more help?
yeah…
so how are you matt.jenn8?
I am doing good, stessed over everyday responsibilites, so i thought i would take a step back and help some one if i could.
it is good to help someone learn from the mistakes i have already made
god works in mysterious ways, just when you think your alone or there is no way out, he finds a way. i am never on chats. i have 2 kids and no time, but i am glad i was here today to
i have time right now dont get me wrong. i am still here
sry, im looking at other posts to now,
i really don’t have a bigger problem of my own, I would be impressed if i did.
it is not a problem it is a begining
right now actually, I got some wonderful letters from a girl that has been so kind to me ever since I met her. I never recieved them on time and she thought I was ignoring her. I just talked to her the other day. She is still upset, but I am glad I got to talk to her. She just find out about my diagnosis as well. I don’t know what will happen, but I’m glad she’s around, she tries so hard to look out for me without letting me know. lol. she’s wonderful.
take a chance, go for it. life is to short to miss out on all of the wonderful things and hapiness that it can bring you. the worst that could happen is you walk away with a friend for life!
i know, i know. It’s hard with all these things about me, but I just talked to her yesterday. Hope everything works out for the best. :)
you are no different than everybody else, whoever makes you feel that way is wrong. you love you bleed . my sister is bi polar, and no one can tell. as far as the sc. everyone hears voices, it is called thinking. dont let that diagnosis put you down, do there suggestions to make it better. if you want to be normal, be crazy if you want to be a minority, be sane! me i would rather just be me, keep your head up and like yourself for you, and she will too
yea, it’s been great matt.jenn8. I’m going to try to close up my conversations and get something to eat before I go to work. Thank you so much, I hope all is well for. If you ever have any posts be sure to invite me, I already want to return your kindness.
Bon voyage!
matt.jenn8 wrote:
minnie explain more i can help more tomorrow of coarse!
hey ok im back…aaand..idk how to deal with my depression…i dont want the classic “just dont worry be happy” cuz it dont work!…
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