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Actually, Invisible

I need some place to get this out,
Get this down
Before these thoughts
Start to drown.

I am wondering if you can see me
While you look at her
I am pondering my existence
Without you in my world
Does anyone notice
A charming little girl?
So lost so lost
And so alone
In her tower, made of words.

This is not a lovesick mantra
A poem placed on end
but a lonely lovesick heartbeak
Impossible to mend.
Grinning and shining; a display
What a pity,
such a shame
She’s left the light
Can’t you see the darkness growing
Getting bigger inside of her?
So lost so lost and so Alone
Wishing she was free.

L-O-V-E
Should be a palindrome
Sames ways up as down
Same ways forward, to and towards
A perfect harmony
But Love is only half-torn hearts
And blatant jealousy
So lost so lost
And so alone
Her eyes begin to tear.

It’s the make of teenage dreams
To be watched
To be seen
It’s the make of teenage dreams
for love to be Inspired
What a fool to play at cards
When the fool’s a cheater
Love doesn’t take tender bribes
Or hopeful serenades
For love is lost on those who see
and those who are The Seen
So lost so lost
And so alone
On the paper castle roof

I can understand that you have changed
For time and change are good
I can understand that you have pain
For I have felt the same.
But your lack of understanding:
Soon it wears on me
And I quickly start to question
Was It Meant To Be?
So lost so lost
And so alone
Standing on the ledge

This ledge, my edge
This heart that’s not my heart
I find I am afraid of flight
And the jump looks much too far
So perhaps I will not leap
From my paper tower
Maybe it’s insanity,
to let this night pass unhindered
By my final hour
So lost so lost
And so alone
Too afraid to jump

So for now I patch my heart
With carefree golden bands
Listen to your laughter
And find a better man.
For this is just a goodbye poem
For my almost-love
This is just another heartbreak
Because one is not enough
So lost so lost
And still alone
Wishing for an end

If you were to stop and ask
How Are You Today
My answer would be in full
I’m Actually Invisible.
But you won’t ever think to ask
You’re too stuck on her
So I’ll find a way to move on
From my little world
And if it comes with a different knight
In a different set or armor
Maybe I’ll learn to live
Just a little longer.

~Sorry Indy was feeling poetic :P And no I’m not going to off myself, Plus I’m scared of falling so that would never ever ever never happen.

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