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Hey people, help me! I’m so freaking jealous of these girls at my school.
One of them is called Sophie and she’s drop dead gorgeous. She has long, straight blond hair that comes around her shoulders and she looks more like a princess when she lets them fall down behind her back. Even though she’s not taller than me(I’m about 5 foot 5) she looks even cuter when she’s walking around with these pretty friends of hers and when she’s standing with these wacky, athletic boys. Every person in our school seems to know her and most importantly, I hate the fact that I can’t even hate her because when I had a class with her, I found out that she’s nice, too. She does all sorts of sports and that makes her even popular ’cause she’s not too girly and she knows how to play with a ball, you know. She’s real popular as you can see and whenever I see her, I feel most jealous. On one side, I really wanna be her friend but I know that I will never be. I feel so miserable and pathetic when I think of it. The reasons that I wanna be her friend are not only restricted to the fact that she’s popular. Actually, I’m more of genuinely interested about her because she was so nice when I first came to this school and she truly looks like a person that I wanna be friend with for long time.
The second one is as popular as Sophie and two of them are real close friends as far as I’m concerned. Evey boy seems to flirt with her and this boy that I have a crush on(though my feelings for him aren’t that strong yet…or maybe not) is almost always talking to her, flirting with her, and unlike Sophie, I don’t wanna be friend with her or something because…I don’t know, for some reasons. She is absolutely cute and even though she’s still not taller than me and even though she’s not as skinny as me or Sophie, she is really pretty. Both of them don’t wear makeups and still they look definitely fabulous. She also has nice personality, I know that, because every once a while when I bump into her sometimes, she apologizes really politely.
I can’t get over it really.
I’m always so jealous and I don’t know WTF I have to do to raise my self esteem.
I don’t feel worthy at all.
Compared to them, I’m so ugly and I just wanna hide whenever or wherever I see them.
I don’t wanna start this vicious cycle inside of me again.
I feel so bad for myself, really.
Plz help me. Anything. Ways to look more pretty, how to ignore people around me, anything.
No rude comments plz I’m not even kidding you guys, plz take this seriously.
Thanks.