Hey there ‘d’. I think we can all relate to what you feel whether it be in a small way or in a big way. In some regards, we humans just aren’t equipped to deal with all the pressures of modern life. It’s easy to become stressed, overwhelmed, and feel like we have little control of our lives.
There are three main illusions when we become depressed that perpetuate the cycle. 1) We feel like we have no control over our lives. 2) We feel like the world is set against us. 3) We feel like we’ll be stuck in this situation forever.
Luckily, none of these three things are true.
I’d suggest you start putting yourself in place to succeed. Start with little things. Plan to go see a movie twice per month, and follow through! It’s silly but when we set goals, even teeny tiny ones and succeed, it helps us feel more confident, more prepared for bigger successes.
Also, what has always helped me out of a dark place is to develop a healthy obsession. Maybe it’s playing guitar, or learning everything there is to know about a particular author or film-maker or band. Maybe it’s reading, maybe it’s writing, heck… maybe it’s just getting really good at a game! Pick something that you know would make you feel an eentsy bit better to complete… and obsess! Focus on it relentlessly. Fill up so much of your time with it that you don’t have time to fret or stress or worry. By the time you master your project (and if you really build the passion for it, you will!) you’ll find yourself feeling a little bit better about yourself, a little more confident, a little more ready to meet your larger goals.
Hope this help! Good luck out there :)