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want to know when its really bad?
when you need help and nobody can say anything you haven’t heard or thought of already…but you can’t do it..it won’t save you.
When its all really in your own head and you can run away from it, because nothing anyone will ever tell you will be enough to make it better.
When you start to get annoyed with what you hear when someone wants to help…mostly when you know they think you’re either below them and/or being stupid.
When you don’t want to hear it…ever again.
When you think about different ways you could die in different situations a million times every day…not that you’ll ever ever do it…you’re just a masochist…you’d rather suffer. You have little to no hope but you’ll still stick around to see what happens.
When you type up a random post like this, because this is how you’re thinking and how you’re feeling and you know someones probably going to type a smart*** comment…maybe someone will say you’re being stupid when you already know you are…
but you do it anyway.
when you feel beyond help.
when you start to get really good at covering it up.
when you start to feel like no one really knows you anymore…
but you’re afraid if they knew they may feel like they are getting in too deep.
but wait..it’ll probably get worse
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