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i don’t have much right now
i;m addicted to alcohol and stealing it (cause i cant afford any of my own) i’m at my someone else’s place right now i can’t afford the net either. I like alcohol cause it numbs whatever i’m going through. i’m not dumb, i know what i’m doing to myself, i just don’t know what to do anymore. I’m 20, i don’t know, i don’t think i will live to see 21. i’m just….screwed i guess. last night i woke up at a bathroom in a pub, i have no idea what happened before that, all i know it was at a night at a bar. This happened countless times, i wake up at places i don’y know,I start drinking then i just want more til i pass out. i usually get my friends to pay or i flirt with the bartender and get it for free. i steal it too a lot of times. i started drinking to control my social anxiety when i was 15. and 5 years down the line, i wish i hadn’t. the friends i have, only are drinking buddies. i can’t go to college the few times i have, has been drunk. i alienated my whole family who were awesome, and it just hurts, i want more alcohol when i think of how i miss them and all the sh*t i’ve done. i wish really i didn’t have anxiety and i’ve screwed everything up just to deal with this stupid disorder, just to find out i haven;t dealt with it at all. What is life all about, it brings tears to my eyes, why did all this happen
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