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please dont do anything… i know it seems like life is bad, but it WILL improve. you just need to get yourself in the right state of mind. tell yourself that you can do it… that the future is bright. get yourself some professional help.if you set your mind to it, can you can do anything you want. so just try… please

what is it that makes you hate life?

Happiness is never found behind a trigger

its not happiness i seek

lostallhopegu wrote:
its not happiness i seek

well then what do you seek

so….play any instruments ;P? Join a band, that’ll give you feel awesome.

Try spending more time with positive people and do things that you like. Try to get more exercise and spend some time outside.

i play 2 instruments, and i dont know what i want/seek, love work study are all becoming more and more meaningless to me

lostallhopegu wrote:
its not happiness i seek

so what is it that you seek? i understand that you just want to end all the ‘torture’ in your life… but think of all the bad that will happen if you really do take your life.. all the suffering that everyone else will endure.. it only causes more problems..

my suggestion is to talk to someone… possibly get on some medication to help your depression… things like this really do work and you would be surprised at how what you are feeling right this very second is made so much better after treatment..

I agree. Talking to a doctor would be good idea. Even lack of proper vitamins in your diet can cause feelings of depression.

sometimes what you feel at this very moment seem so very large.. but with help, you can look back and see that they were tiny things bothering you..

maybe some peace? some clarity? self affirmation?

whatever it is..find something that makes you want to live..to find out what happens next.
reach out. tell someone. they will care.
i know how it is to just want to carry it all inside. when someone asks me whats wrong i shut down.
talking about it is a step.
maybe you have depression, seek the help of a doctor.
do something to help yourself

r u getting enough sleep? That can really affect your mood, too.

lostallhopegu wrote:
i play 2 instruments, and i dont know what i want/seek, love work study are all becoming more and more meaningless to me

what makes youre life feel meaningless?

I lost someone very dear to my heart through suicide. The sorrow I feel inside is tremendous some days. You will be sentencing all those who love and care about you , to a life of devastation if you do this. They don’t deserve this. You could possibly end your inner torment if you would allow yourself to reach out to others. Please do this. You need support. We all do from time to time. Don’t be afraid to show your true feelings. That’s what makes us human.You shouldn’t have to carry your burdens alone. Reach out and get things sorted out.To want to end things without even trying is so wrong. Do this. Take the first step in your own recovery. You are missing so much love and happiness. Let the beauty of the world, and others, enter your life. You’ll be glad you did… Please end your own suffering by taking the chance to seek help from others. What do you have to loose? You have everything to gain if you do. Just think about it :)

Get a hobby mate. Eat some chocolate and ride you’re girlfriend!! If you don’t feel happy after that, then you’re chemically imbalanced.

Seems odd, strangers giving strangers advice on such intimate things… however, I have been dealing with my father who has been suicidal most of his life, and he has made some valiant attempts in the past. He was a cutter. Long story. Point being, after talking with him, all he really needed was someone to help him devise a plan for his life, for at the moment it all seems meaningless. After digging deeply, we discovered some of the key factors in his own torment and pain. Examining the three human facets. Mind, body, and spirit. He had (like you) played out ending his life in many unique (and quite creative)ways. But, he is still here. So are you. There is a reason that you are. It is sometimes before discovering our reason that we get impatient, and give up. Call a local Pastor for some private (and free) counseling.
Work out a life plan. Every problem is fixable!

i feel like my life is without meaning because i have wasted the last four years of my life due to illness and self loathing. Adjusting back into ‘normality’ seems too hard. i can barely work and my love life is complicated because im a 22 yr old with a spine that was fused to prevent further problems, the doctors that treated me published a few things about my case it’s that bad and unique and told me that it will get worse later on, so future careers seem out of reach, who wants to employ a young kid with no experience and a broken spine. it just feels like i am utterly broken, alone and hopeless

i would like to thank you all for showing me that people can care when its someone they dont even know. thank you for the support

No one can make you want to live. You must decide that for yourself. But you have the ability to impact the lives of others, possibly through the story you will one day tell of your struggle, and how you were able to overcome it! You are in a unique position to actually inspire others. But you first must get over this hurdle. 22 seems young to just flush it down the drain. Many people have died too soon. Most of them would give anything to be in your exact same position, just as you are, if they would just have another chance to live. They don’t, but you still do.

no problem. thats what were here for. =) xoxo

Not all jobs require physical activity. Find an area to pursue that you enjoy. There are people who are productively employed who cannot walk or have other disabilities. There must be something out there for you.

lostallhopegu wrote:
i feel like my life is without meaning because i have wasted the last four years of my life due to illness and self loathing. Adjusting back into ‘normality’ seems too hard. i can barely work and my love life is complicated because im a 22 yr old with a spine that was fused to prevent further problems, the doctors that treated me published a few things about my case it’s that bad and unique and told me that it will get worse later on, so future careers seem out of reach, who wants to employ a young kid with no experience and a broken spine. it just feels like i am utterly broken, alone and hopeless

listen… as a person who has not only severe scoliosis, just had surgery to fuse and place screws and a plate into my neck and dealing with a tumor inside of my spinal fluid canal which is inoperable and taking over my nervous system, and degenerating disks… i can understand exactly where you are coming from… not knowing how the future outlook will be, feeling like your life has come to a hault, cant work, and act like a normal person… you have to realize that life is not over… you can still live life…. you can live it day by day and take it as it comes.. life is not over….. you need to take this situation and laugh at it… dont let it get to you.. your mind still works, right? so for a job, find something where you can sit and maybe do a desk job.. even if its for a couple hours a day… know what i mean?

thank you Shie, i will continue to take it day by day. my back and neck are a burden not only on myself but on my relationships and with my male inability to communicate it just all adds up. thank you for the support, it means the world to me

you are very welcome… and of course… dont think that i just deal with what im going through…

i complain all the time.. because i suffer with daily migraines… which totally wipe me out… and although i try to ignore them and continue on… i have to say.. i complain a lot… :)

i often find myself wondering.. what is going to happen once i end up in a wheelchair… where is my boyfriend going to be… but you know what… if someone cant stay with you because of your condition.. then they dont deserve you anyways…