life help: Is it possible at this point of my life, going through these tough times that I begin to consider the conflicts within my own mind? - Help.com

embrace your gifts. be who you are…all of who you are. fulfilling your potential doesn’t mean you have to give up any part of yourself. do you want brings YOU happiness..not anyone else.
you are very deep, and very complicated..questioning the world is enough of a task without also questioning yourself.
and this person sounds like they might be good for you..self realization.
count yourself lucky that you are able to notice.

I guess thats what is so nice about this site… I can give helpful in-depth advice, or just post random thoughts. I guess in a way I can satisfy each side of myself. Thx for your opinion.

The ever-adaptable chameleon. Changing when it suits you. A dangerous game for humans. Seems that no one could truly know you. You don’t even know you. You are very reflective and poetic. Exploring your artistic side would prove to be wise. As long as you utilize your gifts for good, and not for harm or “manipulation”, then you have been given that gift appropriately. When the gift becomes a source of power, from which we feed… the gift is being abused. I believe you can have a peaceful blend of both worlds. Responsible with a splash of wild adventure. Procede with caution, examine your motives. Pure? Impure? That usually answers everything.

Agreed… I know i have used my abilities in the past in dishonest ways and I know this has a lot to do with the fear I have of embracing them again. But at the same time I wonder, am I doomed to remain caught between so-to-speak? And yes I have often thought of myself as a chameleon… But if I know I am a chameleon then don’t I know myself?

Clearly you are a seeker. A seeker of the truth about who you are, and who you are yet to be. However, it is a shame to waste precious gifts that many are not even blessed with. If the motive is only self-fulfilling, it is likely not worth further exploration. Chances are, you already know the answers you seek. All choices we make in our thoughts, words, and actions, shape and then define who we really are. The “chameleon syndrome”, usually stems from desired acceptance. Ask yourself a few questions. In what ways have I been rejected in the past that are still effecting my behavior today? People person, or people pleaser? (We are back to acceptance again). Genuinely joyful person, or just plays one on T.V.? Insightful to know you are a chameleon. Bizarre to seek answers from strangers who are most likely much more clueless in general.

Wishing you the blessing of clarity!

Ahh, if only you knew the questions I ask myself. Is it because I am insecure with my intellect and never really accepted as such? Is it because it is always seemingly easier to be accepted on the surface rather than for who you really are? Perhaps it is because I am able to feel so confident with my simpler side and so unsure with my more complex feelings? Maybe its because I am a guy and society has given me so many examples of how I should be that I cannot except how I truly am. Imagine a person who was so afraid of trying to be accepted for his intellegence and understanding that he supressed his true identity for most of his life and was happy being just another superficially cool person. I’m sure many of you know what it feels like to run with the “in-crowd”. But what happens when someday the smart, caring person inside begins to awaken? Then what? To lose oneself is bad enough… but what happens when you are the one who willingly cast your own self aside? The other selfless question remains: what to do now? If I was blessed with these gifts and am now realizing the importance and meaning as such… WHY was I given this in-sight? And what do I do with it now since I have lived my whole life to date repressing such things? Everyone wants to be simple, but the complexity of my own life asks entirely too many questions to be ignored.