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suicide is really not the answer.
many unlikely things have happened, so do your best to find happiness.

wow you have a way with words…
whats going on? =(

live4What?0 wrote:

Amon wrote:
They don’t care, nothing in there souls shows compassion.

True. Humanity=Fail

yes this may be true but there ARE still good people who have compassion in this world!! look at all the people who post on everyone’s problems…..

Do not cares if any of these peoples won’t give you compassion, Because none of them matters at the end and not worth of your time of Love as well. Don’t ever! ever let anybody hold your happiness down, because you are worth more then anything given in this world. More then anything!! remember that.

Amon wrote:
An entity such as I was never meant to be in existence.

maybe thats where your going wrong because your letting yourself believe this…..you matter to the world! everyone on this earth does!! If you were never here so many peoples lives would have been different and not in a good way. I dont know you personally but if I did im sure there is something you have done that has helped someones life in someway. And where you are from sounds alot like where i grew up….no one cares except for themselves, people are greedy always looking for what they can get…blah blah blah….but I got away from all that….even if you have to stay there find comfort not in the human relationships around you but other things….what do u like…what defines you? figure this out and center your life around it…mine is God and art and when Im surrounding myself with either of these things my anger leaves and I am content. You seem like a writer. do u write??

What always helps me is this quote….i find it comforting when I feel depressed or alone.

“Everything will be ok in the end, if its not ok then its not the end”

But that does!! With out writers in this world books would stop….t.v. shows would disappear we wouldn’t have movies..newspapers…and etc… Writing does matter to this world…the world needs great writers…..And as far as saying it wont happen your kinda deciding your own future with that state of mind. You have to think that nothing is impossible!! I know this may sound corny but I always say this to my friends….if America would have only aimed to get to the moon they would have never made it past that…instead they aimed for the stars and have satellites and etc that have gotten way past the moon…I know that is kinda corny but its the message its conveying that matters….your state of mind about things creates your world….change your thinking change your world….and unfortunately sacrificing yourself wont make the world better…maybe worse because for all we know we could lose one more great novelist!? The way to make the world better is by the little things in your life….I always say try smiling at one stranger randomly walking past you…for all you know that might really brighten there day (becuase ive learned from walking home in downtown that people are not smiling at me to often) and if you brighten one persons day that could inspire them to continue it on….. Like Ghandi said “You may never know what results come of your action, but if you do nothing there will be no result”

hey hi ..how is life?…

Don’t kill yourself. I know you don’t want to hear the same crap over and over but you do matter to the world, and people do care. That quote? “Everything will be okay in the end, if it’s not okay then it’s not the end.”? That’s a perfect quote. That’s a true quote.

Please dont kill yourself, please try to hang in there. If you feel like talking, shout me. I’m here. K? :)

Well……don’t do that either. Dammit, I’m no help now.

Amon, we all don’t have the answers to any of our problems even though we seek for it. What are you so hurt about?

I wish I had the answer, too. I truly do.

That’s interesting that you write. What do you write?

I write, too.

I do have lots of suggestions I could give, I could tell you what works for me… but you have probably heard most of it before and nothing I have ever suggested to you seemed to be the least bit helpful, unfortunately. And I feel sad about that because I do like helping. That’s why I’m here.

You might be good enough to make money. How do you know you’re not? What do you do with the stuff you write?

I’ve noticed before that you have an excellent vocabulary and a unique way of putting things.

You don’t need to go to university to get a writing career. The writing business, like most other things in life, is all about who you know. But there are other ways to get started, too.

I have recently started writing on guru.com for $! I never thought I would make money with my writing talent.

A creative writing degree won’t actually help you become a professional writer. Only getting stuff published will do that. Most famous writers do not have a creative writing degree.

How do you know?

Oh. That’s too bad.

“physchological problems rooted from childhood”

You found your problem. You were never taught to deal with the negative emotional aspects of life and how to forgive your self and others so you could move on. Throughout life you never learned how to deal with anything, so you are stuck with the mental and emotional skills of a two year old. You refuse any incite or help because you have no trust in people. Your problems now are not because people are doing you wrong, you just have always felt that way. You never learned how to interact with other people because your childhood was F’ed up. And even knowing the problem doesn’t help because you don’t let the doctors know everything that has happened to you to give you a proper diagnosis. Or you won’t follow how to fix it. Your problems are text book issues with the ordeals you have been through growing up. (even the, killing animals thing)

“He is a ball of anger. He is now an angry resentful, revengeful man.”

You will have to go to a professional to learn the skills to cope with the “past”, deal with the present, and move forward to a better life. It will be difficult and require all your effort and time. You are right, no one here can help you. You need a trained professional, or commit your self. I hope you find happiness. (without violence)

Amon wrote:
There is a boy who is born to unloving and uncaring parents. His father is a workaholic and an alcholic. His mother is an abusive lying pothead. His parents being neither rich nor poor never give him presents or attention. He realizes from a young age that he is doomed. He lives through his elementry years alone, scared, scarred, beaten and partly broken with two half sisters who refuse to awknowledge his existence. He has problems that cause people to call him special for, yet they are actually physchological problems rooted from childhood. His uncle molestes him. He is also latter rapped. He keeps these a secret. He is tormented and bullied without end. He suceeds into his room for years hating the outside. He dreams about dying all of the time. He plans suicide but never completes it. He does extroardanarily well in school. He hopes that his parents will love him for it but they are to busy. He does stupid and clumsy things from time to time because of his social akwardness. People hate him without trying to understand him. During junior-high school he falls in love, a girl who finally talks to him. They love each other for several years, he finally tastes what it is like to be loved. He even meets three friends. His marks drop a bit. She moves to another city not far away. On her birthday she is hit by a motor vehicle. He visits her without his parents consent. She gives him a ring and then she dies. He is sad, sorrowful. But then some months later the group falls apart after one of them kills himself. The one friend leaves to go far away. The last betrays the boy. He is saddened further. His sadness turns to rage. The ocean of anger he is forced to live is unimaginable. His parents bully him without mercy. His father calls him things like white indian and the same name as his uncle. Highschool starts and his grades drop. He does stupid horrible things to get attention. He robbes a store. He starts drinking allot. He steals and kills small animals for fun. But it isn’t fun. Two individuals start talking to him in his mind, they take control now and again. His dreams haunt him. In his dreams he sees a young boy. His former self. He was once and deep down still is an upright hero who would sacrifice himself to see love and peace in the world. But all he sees is hate. He crys and scars himself all over. He blames himself for her death. It is his fault, he was stupid, young and reckless. He looks in the mirror and hates what he sees but even more what he might become. His anger is so immense that he could and likely do terrible unspeakable things to his fellow man. He wants to be a hero, but all he sees is a villian. He looks for more friends and for more love. All he finds is ridicule and insult. He becomes ever more distant from society. He goes on pills that don’t work. He sees shrinks that don’t help. He feels so much pain. He drops out and joins the army. He sees terrible things, death. His future is dead. But he is not broken. He is a ball of anger. He is now an angry resentful, revengeful man.

Amon has been banned. Wow. I wonder if a lot of people are getting kicked? It’s sad. That guy really needed help. Well, maybe it was hopeless anyway. Maybe he will find peace.