Iam going to start off by saying i need help really bad.
My life what is it now? Do i have a life anymore? I dont no.
I feel hurt, pain, lost, tired, crazy.
I feel like my blood dipping down from my heart and when i cry more blood comes out from my eyes.
You will always find me if you are looking down cuz ever where i go
there will be blood on the floor.
I lost my soul some where on the road to hell.
I smoke another day off my life when i light up a cigarette.
I drink another day off my life when i pop open another beer botle.
One cigarette after another and it keeps on going……..
One beer after another and they keep on comeing……
I light up another blow…..
I keep telling myself this is the last one but i dont stop.
Its just more days of my life that i dont have to live so they just keep on comeing and never stop till someone stops it
and i dont see anyone trying.
Some poeple trun to god but i dont beleave in god.
I have pain in my heart from someone i loved more than anything in the world and still do love him more than he will
ever no.
I give my heart away once befor and it was not his flot or mine it was gods and when i meet this other guy i though he could
fix my heart and well he did
but he just broke it over and this time it hurts more thanlast time.
I cant over him there is just something
about him i cant let go.
I tryed so ******* hard to let him but i just cant…
I will never stop loveing him no matter what happens.
The day i stop loveing him will be the day i die.
Yes i want him back but dose he want me?
Dose he still love me?
Did he ever love me frist of all or did he just want to get ******?
I would give up everthing just to be will him and i hope he knows how much he hurt me .
There are 10000 thing runing though my head right now i would just like to get it all out.
~jess~
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