friends help: i wont apologize for whining even though i feel that i should. - Help.com

i wont apologize for whining even though i feel that i should.

I feel like i’m letting my life just waste away. i am the kind of person who when something goes wrong or gets a little messed up I just like to start it over again. for example if i’m writing a letter and the hand writing looks sloppy ill start over again..sometimes 2 or 3 times. so what do I do when my life starts to feel messed up? I want to just start over. new body new family new friends new everything. Unfortunately this isn’t really possible. Sometimes i just get this overwhelming feeling of wanting it all to be over, but then i realize that means death and I am not quite so sick of my self that I am willing to give up what i have. you know..just in case karma isn’t real and there isn’t a fabulous after life.

But you know. even though i have cavities in my teeth and they are getting worse because i don’t have the money to go to a dentist and may have to get root canals; even though i might have herpes; even though i all of my friends are 1000 miles away; even though i am barely earning enough money to pay rent
i am surprisingly ok. I started this rant feeling like garbage but now, I don’t know. I want to be happy. i really do, but (and this is almost cliche) i just am tired of being alone and happy. its boring.
and yeah yeah you can tell me all about there being a lot of fish in the sea. but you know what? there are hundreds of empty miles in the ocean where very few living creatures are at any one time.and i think I just so happen to be floating along in a dead zone

This open post was written 1 year, 1 month ago | V/U/S: 162, 6, 4 | Edit Post | Leave a reply | Report Post

friends, death, herpes simplex, Tooth, fish, Money, afterlife, Dentistry, happiness, life (How Tags Affect Reciprocity)

A logged in and verified Help.com member has the ability to setup a Friends List and invite others to help with posts.