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I dont feel real. I feel like my body and soul and emotions aren’t solid, like I’m slightly invisible. I know I’m physically here but I sometimes wish I could become human, like other people. I fall into a gap of being a person and being a living doll who can speak but is only really an object, molded and created for other people. I’m waiting for the day that I realize I am real too. I don’t want to be here just for other people, I want to be here as me, for me.
First, decide what kind of person you want to be. Second, develop a plan for becoming that person. Third, implement the plan. Fourth, monitor your progress in becoming that person and adjust accordingly.
P.S. Don’t feel you have to please everyone else all the time, or you will become one frustrated and dissatisfied human being. Find a balance between being “there” for others and being “there” for yourself. Balance is the key.
People like to play with dolls, no one can break an imaginary friend.
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1 year, 1 month ago (16 minutes after post)
you are leaving your body and are gaining enlightenment,
wordfarer wrote:
People like to play with dolls, no one can break an imaginary friend.
I have found that out. But I don’t want to be other peoples imaginary friend. I wanna be a real girl.
Anonymous wrote:
you are leaving your body and are gaining enlightenment,
What do you mean?
Kiti wrote:
wordfarer wrote:
People like to play with dolls, no one can break an imaginary friend.
I have found that out. But I don’t want to be other peoples imaginary friend. I wanna be a real girl.
Where is the Turquoise Fairy now… :/
I think you’ve found the solution yourself.
If you want to feel more real, then stop “being a living doll who can speak but is only really an object, molded and created for other people”.
Do something completely for you.
( great post, I think I may be coming out of the same situation )
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1 year, 1 month ago (2 hours, 32 minutes after post)
No longer a shadow on the wall, it’s hard to be alive, to accept life as it is and start finding your meaning again. The beauty of small things, sometimes my mind feels like it’s clouded by a cold fog. This probably doesn’t make any sense at all, feel free to ignore me
Maybe something insightful can form in this post http://help.com/post/208810 (discussing meaningfulness of life)
Sigurrós wrote:
No longer a shadow on the wall, it’s hard to be alive, to accept life as it is and start finding your meaning again. The beauty of small things, sometimes my mind feels like it’s clouded by a cold fog.
Nice poetry.
perception is reality, but only for the ignorant. your personality is apparent when it reflects off others, so perhaps the people around you are only absorbing your light and not letting it reflect.
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I know exactly how you feel. I feel the same way. Like you have no grasp on reality, right? On what is, and what was, and what will be. None of it exists, at least not for you. And when you’re with the other people, you’re not you because there is no real you, but when you are what other people need you to be you get to feel real, just for a little while, and you feel like maybe you could be real too if you stay with them and keep being their doll. But when you’re away from them it’s horrible, because there isn’t anything else, you aren’t anything in and of yourself, you’re just empty and hollow. The emptiness is awful. I still don’t know how to get rid of it, but I am starting to realize that people who gravitate towards you when you feel this way will keep discarding you and leaving you, it’s like they can tell that there’s nothing there, but they don’t know that you’re giving everything you have, or they don’t care.
It’s been a while, probably nobody will see this but I hope you stopped feeling this way, it’s awful.
lifeinsideamusicbo wrote:
I know exactly how you feel. I feel the same way. Like you have no grasp on reality, right? On what is, and what was, and what will be. None of it exists, at least not for you. And when you’re with the other people, you’re not you because there is no real you, but when you are what other people need you to be you get to feel real, just for a little while, and you feel like maybe you could be real too if you stay with them and keep being their doll. But when you’re away from them it’s horrible, because there isn’t anything else, you aren’t anything in and of yourself, you’re just empty and hollow. The emptiness is awful. I still don’t know how to get rid of it, but I am starting to realize that people who gravitate towards you when you feel this way will keep discarding you and leaving you, it’s like they can tell that there’s nothing there, but they don’t know that you’re giving everything you have, or they don’t care.
It’s been a while, probably nobody will see this but I hope you stopped feeling this way, it’s awful.
Yeah, I have that too, that’s a better way to describe it than I ever could of thought of, totally didn’t even notice that that was what it took to bring on the real feeling, I have no idea what to do either, almost nothing I know of can help you, especially not a suggestion from this site, my honest opinion, marijuana in small amounts (seriously, it’s so effective, but only small amounts and only when you get the thoughts, otherwise it just ends making you way more depressed) but even that is not a solution, although it is a quick fix to get me back out of my head, it is a chemical dependency and so other issues will follow as a result of it. Wish I could offer better advice but I’ll post it if I find it someday
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Dont’t try to tailor yourselves to to someone you want to be, or to an ideal. all you can do is make the most of your own life. I mean try to be who you want to be honestly, don’t censor yourself at anytime. if you feel like whatever you were about to say was stupid, don’t let it stop you! speak your mind! just try it, if only for one day, any thought that hits your mind, speak it! see if you find another perspective! putting together all angles equals a fair conclusion! MATH!
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i know what you mean you dont feel like you, you feel empty, you feel dull you dont feel happy you dont feel any aspects of a person like being funny feeling real sadness real anger real humor you dont feel caring it just feels like you go through the day on auto piolet like a zombie its really hard to explain but ur frustrated by this and you just wanna be normal again but u just cant, u see other people and u think how are they happy how do they do it you can think with your head but you cant recognize ur thoughts to the point were you can say what ur thinking but when you say something it comes out wierd really doesnt make sense i donk know but i ******* hate it also mabe try and switch things up try doing things different notice things switch up your routines example notice what shoe you put on first then if you put ur right shoe on first try putting ur left shoe on first mabee get out of auto piolet and try relaxing if ur stressed out about ur situation try not thinking about iti mean constantly thinking about it ist just gonna make it woorse and be happy and eat apples seriously
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