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I’m currently in treatment for an eating disorder. While in treatment, I’m staying with my grandmother. She is older, but I don’t notice symptoms of dementia. I’ve explained my eating disorder to her and the treatment process on several occasions. In fact, she was the one who initially noticed the problem. Now she makes a lot of upsetting comments which are making it difficult for me to WANT to recovery. She says things like “Do you want some ________?” and then follows it with comments like, “Are you allowed to have that?” When I ask why, she’ll say, “because it’s not good for you”, or “it makes you gain weight”. Then, later in the day, she’ll ask if I’ve eaten and encourages me to. It’s so difficult. The other day, prior to leaving for treatment, I said something about how they were going to make me eat lunch - she did a once-over of my body and said “They want you to GAIN weight?”

I know she’s just confused and doesn’t have a full understanding of what an eating disorder is, but it’s very hurtful. I’ve made so many efforts to explain the disorder to her, as have my dad and stepmom. I know she thinks of the 60-pound anorexic twins on Entertainment Tonight when she thinks of eating disorder, so it’s hard for her to understand that you can maintain a healthy weight and still be sick. I feel so discouraged and I’m faking recovery so I can be discharged and go back to restricting. I am so hurt, but this is the healthiest environment for me during treatment. What can I do?

I’m currently in treatment for an eating disorder. While in treatment, I’m staying with my grandmother. She is older, but I don’t notice symptoms of dementia. I’ve explained my eating disorder to her and the treatment process on several occasions. In fact, she was the one who initially noticed the problem. Now she makes a lot of upsetting comments which are making it difficult for me to WANT to recovery. She says things like “Do you want some ________?” and then follows it with comments like, “Are you allowed to have that?” When I ask why, she’ll say, “because it’s not good for you”, or “it makes you gain weight”. Then, later in the day, she’ll ask if I’ve eaten and encourages me to. It’s so difficult. The other day, prior to leaving for treatment, I said something about how they were going to make me eat lunch - she did a once-over of my body and said “They want you to GAIN weight?”

I know she’s just confused and doesn’t have a full understanding of what an eating disorder is, but it’s very hurtful. I’ve made so many efforts to explain the disorder to her, as have my dad and stepmom. I know she thinks of the 60-pound anorexic twins on Entertainment Tonight when she thinks of eating disorder, so it’s hard for her to understand that you can maintain a healthy weight and still be sick. I feel so discouraged and I’m faking recovery so I can be discharged and go back to restricting. I am so hurt, but this is the healthiest environment for me during treatment. What can I do?