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i’ve tried to hang myself before.

i faked being sick as usual and when my mum left i got a rope ready and tried to hang myself. when i had got it all ready i stepped off and the rope broke. i use that really strong blue one, im not that fat and im not skinny so there was no reason 4 it. i got really sad and upset so i when out to the back garden and started a fire. i was thinking about jumpin into it and finaly getting rid of some of my pain. but i didnt bother. no one wants me dead or alive. i’ve wanted to go and get some help, because i know its not right. but no one wanted to help. my mum doesn’t care and my dad doesnt bother coz he has ‘his’ family to look after. when i finaly wanted help no one gave it. so im starting to go down the wrong route again. i dont want to but i cant help it. can someone tell me what to do? i also have a post called ‘im 14 next month and bored with life’ if ya wanna know more about my family..

but please.. someone help…. i’ll do anything.

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CuriousSea offline Verified User (2 years, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (7 minutes after post)

Hey, don’t give up.

Focus on yourself. What’s the point of getting rid of you. It doesn’t help anyone. The world just going to continue rolling on. Everything’s a desolation, everything’s a mess, and everything’s seems vain so what’s the point of giving up. Giving up for what?

Go on until the end, no matter what.

This life isn’t no heaven, neither is it hell, but this life is tough only for a little time and tough people lasts.

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kylie.newma offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (13 minutes after post)

dial 1-800-suicide
it’s a good hotline.

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Ξ.Ģäβž.Ξ offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (21 minutes after post)

God, I reckon 14 is the most difficult age to go through, I truly do. I dunno if anyone else feels that way, but I seee it as the age where your not a kid anymore but your not an adult either. So your kind of stuck in limbo about where you actually are in life.

Whats school like ? You got friends n stuff ?

What do you mean your going down the wrong route ? You getting into strife ?

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231me231 offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (25 minutes after post)

im bored with school… i dont like my teachers coz i know most of what they are teaching me, i have friends but.. i just cant connect with them.. they think im a ‘joker’ coz i normaly fake it around everyone. even my family. ive tried getting help but its not working and im getting worse than before and i just dont want to do anything to stupid. i know its all wrong but i cant stop..

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Ξ.Ģäβž.Ξ offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (38 minutes after post)

K, well before you try hanging yourself again. I just want to say one thing.

Many suicide attempts result in brain damage or other injuries that can leave you disabled for the rest of your life. And once that happens, you won’t be capable of attempting suicide again, but you will live an awfully uncomfortable existance with someone as your carer.

So please think about that before doing it again.

Tell me about your parents ? How is your relationship with them ? Are you able to talk openly and honestly with them ? Because normally your parents are the first port of call, if possible. I know this is not always possible if there are problems there.

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231me231 offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (44 minutes after post)

my mum works alot she leaves before i wake up and gets home about 7, my dad doesnt live with me infact they split when i was born,i hardly talk to my mum and my dad isnt here, when i do go round my dads he always sleeps and if hes not sleeping hes tring to make me look stupid infront of his other family. his other family is his girlfriend and her daughter that is one year older than me. i make my own meals but theres hardly any food here so i only get about 1 meal a day. and its kinda a bummer when my mum gets home and doesnt even say hi. since i make my own meals i dont eat with my mum. i have a sister that is hardly ever here but when she is she always argues with my mum. my mum has her hands full with my sister so much she doesnt pay any attention to me.

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Ξ.Ģäβž.Ξ offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (57 minutes after post)

Wow, I can now see why you are feeling so sh*tful. Thats really awful. You must get really lonely.

Is your mum aware that you are not happy ? Or sounds like she’s too busy to be aware of much at all really.

I assume your mum is working ? Is that why she is away so much ?

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231me231 offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (58 minutes after post)

yup… she looks after my 18 year old sis more than me.. and she dont even want to be looked after

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Ξ.Ģäβž.Ξ offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (1 hour, 7 minutes after post)

Hmm, at 18 she shouldn’t need looking after.

I know your only young and you shouldn’t need to even be worrying about your future at your age, but it sounds like you are going to need to take a little control of your life, because you don’t seem to have anyone else around to help you do that or give you any guidance or direction in life.

I really think what you need to do from here is work hard at school (i know you’ve probably heard that a thousand time), but this is especially important for you in particular because of your situation.

You really only get one shot at your education, and after that your options are very limited. If you don’t get a half decent education, employers don’t want to know you and you can’t do College courses because you didn’t get any education in the first place.

Yeah you can go back to school as a mature age student, but it aint the same, and it can get expensive.

If you get stuck into school now, you will be able to set yourself up sooner and look after yourself rather than having to rely on your mum. Money isn’t everything, but it does make life more comfortable.

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Ξ.Ģäβž.Ξ offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (1 hour, 10 minutes after post)

Also, don’t under estimate the school counsellor. They are awsome with this stuff, and general problem solving with everyday life situations.

They hear your story everyday from other students in the same situation. They know how to support you, and it would probably help you get some stuff off your chest to.

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231me231 offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (1 hour, 16 minutes after post)

thank you… really thank you… i will do my best… but thank you so much really. ill do as you say but thank you… UR AWESOME! thanks 4 taking some time to help and for actully reading it. maybe i will be able to get my dream job now!

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Ξ.Ģäβž.Ξ offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (1 hour, 22 minutes after post)

Of course you will. Your a battler. Your doing it hard. So when your time comes, you will appreciate it more than anyone else.

And your time will come !

Fight for what you want and I guarentee your life will take some exciting turns. Not overnight, but if you set yourself up now, you can do anything you want.

Bad times don’t stay the same forever, and you have got soooooo much to look forwrad to.

Take care of yourself and keep us updated with how your going.

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Sasha101 offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 6 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (2 hours, 35 minutes after post)

Ive said it many times on here, Adolescence and the teen years is a very hard time, the bottom line is we don’t have the Maturity and emotional tools to deal with the simplest of problems, so we think the only answer is to permanently find a way out of it.
Your bored with school ? you don’t like your teachers is this reason enough to take your own life ? I don’t think so. Lots of kids hate school, but we all have to do it,its a thing that has to happen to educate us for the future. Can you imagine starting a job when you are 18 and not being able to even read and write ? School isn’t often fun, but you do occasionally come by a teacher that can make learning fun. I know you don’t see it now, but life is short as it is, and the time we are here can be filled with the good and fun things.Its your outlook to life that will make it good or not, if you go through life with a negative attitude and fail to see the good in things and people then life isn’t going to be good to you.
Teens think these years of confusion and depression will last, they wont I promise you, things are going to get better as you grow, it saddens me to see so many young people just giving up and coming on here with suicidal thoughts. These should be the best years of your young lives, you have little responsibility bills etc… you should be out having fun with friends, not sitting all day in a dark room in front of the computer. Being alone and not getting the sunlight your body craves is a sure way to depression, its a vicious circle,
you start the think negative , you dwell on those thoughts and soon begins the downward spiral. Many don’t talk they internalize their thoughts and problems which again leads to depression, its a known fact that Internalized emotions are not good for anyone.
Your outlook and demeanor often reflects how people perceive you too if they feel you are a misery, then they will avoid being around you quite often. If you try to stay happy and positive you will draw people to you. Nothing and I mean nothing is worth giving up your life for hon, most problems have a solution and as you grow you will gain experience to sort these problems, I promise you, I and many other Adults have been through this, and it doesn’t last.
Just hang in there, try to be happy and positive, the Adolescent stage will pass and you will think to yourself…”Oh geesh and there I was contemplating that!” I want to see you still here when you,re 30yrs old laughing that that thought you had at 14. )))))))))hugs. :-)

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Sasha101 offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 6 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (11 hours, 52 minutes after post)

at that thought* oops :P

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Marta offline Verified User (10 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (2 months, 1 week after post)

i know i’m late for posting, but you describe my situation perfectly, my family is bit different, but that’s not the point. being bored at school, is horrible, i know exactly what you’re going through. but there’s help, i convinced my teachers to let me jump a year, so I skipped a year, and it’s really awesome now. But well this doesn’t really get me rid of my depression.
i talked to a school counselor and well, this helped a bit too. I’m still really depressed, but you know, there’s hope.
i don’t know about your school counselor but usually they’re really helpful cause they listen and give advice. maybe i’m going to therapy, cause i also selfharm, (neverever begin that, youre 14, so i hope you’ll never begin) it’s the crappiest thing ever.
good luck to you :)
(sorry of spelling and grammar mistakes, I’m from Germany )

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An Unknown Location | 6 months, 4 weeks ago (6 months, 1 week after post)

i feel the same way, i just dont know what to do anymore. No one will listen, no one wants to help. No one asks me whats wrong? or anything. My dad has ‘his’ family, my mom raised me by herself. I dont know what to do anymore, iv wanted to hang myself so many times, i hate this feeling, pain. I dont know what to do, no one will listen to what i have to say, i have no one to turn to, i can get through this by myself. but u relized, how my siblings would feel when im gone. Today i locked my self in my room, i just sat there, with tears running down my face, then i heard someone trying to get in, it was my mom, she kept calling my name, but i didnt say anything. Then finally she got through, i was sitting there, listening to her call my name, she was worried about me, then i started crying more, cause then i relized someone does care.

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An Unknown Location | 5 months, 1 week ago (7 months, 3 weeks after post)

I will tell you. nothing can be so bad you have to do that. My brother just did and if he knew wht he left behind and how much we all care about him he wldnt have done it.

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Bryan_Ownz_Yo offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 5 months ago (8 months, 1 week after post)

I agree with everything, I am 14 years old also. I have a very terrible life, starting to lose hope slowly. I am really afraid of being older and going to the point of hurting myself of somebody else. I have had the thoughts of suiside, but I always think to myself.. is it really worth it? I’d rather live my life then to kill it. I go to daily council meetings because of some of the issues I have been having. After my Medication doctor said he does not think im depressed, I went beserk. Because I do know for a fact I am depressed, I have attempted suiside and got caught. That’s what caused me to go crazy about him saying I am not depressed, how can I not be depressed? I have a anxiety disorder and I have a small case of bipolar. It really hurts, I know how teenage life is.. but I live as a normal teenager putting those thoughts behind me when I want to have fun. I have always been good with talking to people, and I have always been a caring teenager who really is curious. I am not a very sucessful person, but I don’t care. I have a loving family that dosn’t seem to lovely at times, but they try. I had a girlfriend at a very young age, I was just turned 13 when I got her. We lasted 1 and a half years, she meant a lot too me. But I got broken, which really makes it harder. I will never give up, and I am proud to say that I have moved on.

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paulino20 offline Verified User (2 months, 3 weeks) Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 3 weeks ago (10 months, 1 week after post)

How about if you are just tired of living? How about if you really just want to go away from earth? How about if you are very serious about killing yourself, but again you are afraid of pain? How about if you just want to experience death, just because you don’t want to be here anymore? and who can tell me that is right or wrong fro me to feel this way? after all this is my life…not yours, not someone else, I’m not crying for help, I just want to go without pain, that’s all.

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