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I did this the other night, When I was confused about who I am. Idealy What will happen is people will make the same things, Post them or Start a new post. A mass self discovery if you will.

About myself……..

Well, I’m just a 5′6 dude, that only weighs 120 lbs, I have brown eyes, And brown hair.

I’m late for work.

I adore a girl thats 500 miles away and she is so wrapped upon herself and the drama that follows her , that she is blind to it, At least I don’t think she can see. I miss New York. I want to move up there in April after my 20th birthday. Scratch that, I am moving up there in April.

My chances of actually making it are stupidly slim, And Ill probably end up …

A) On the streets, Or bumming.

B)Forced to move back down to this well fortified Hell, that only the few can escape from. With its allergen torture and humidity furnace. Where there is no snow because it is afraid to grace its presence upon us. The inhabitants of Hell have lost the sense of amazement that follows snow. We just want it to go away.

But by the chance that god decides to exist and shows up in my life, and I make it, Well hot ****.

Uh, I’m a romantic with hope, but hope is futile. That’s what I tell myself, I want to believe in love. But I don’t. I enjoy the works of Slam Poets, because they tell me what I don’t want to tell myself. I enjoy artist, musically, that seem depressing (In their sound, You know single guitar, Maybe a steady drum beat, If a back up singer its a single female trained in classical opera but sings like shes talking), simply because again, they tell me what I don’t want to tell myself, And I think hearing it from an outside source makes it not my own thoughts. But they are.

I listen to a song called Outlaws, by Joe Pury Once a week. A ritual to say. I can talk myself into or out of anything and I can lie without second thought. Some days I wonder if I have the ability to perceive right and wrong. Or if there is a right and wrong.

I was raised to fear God, but when I thought about it I changed the G to a g, and realized there is no god. There might be a Goddess. But no god.

But aside goes the mental aspect of me.

I have three tattoos. They are small but I like them. People don’t understand what they are and I like that even more. One on each of the interior sides of my legs, Below the knee. And one on the underside of my left wrist.

I don’t have any peircings, I don’t know why.

I draw, I write, I drink, Only Whiskey, Tequila, or Moonshine, only because I like to feel the burn or it going down.

I like dinosaurs. I like coffee. I like viatmin water.

My favorite smell is that of Honeysuckles. My favorite noise is that of a high heel shoe on a hard surface. That click clack, pit pat noise.

Some days I find it a sin to grin. While others I can’t stop laughing. I enjoy the rain and I enjoy the cold. I like horror movies because it’s nice to feel my heart beat. I like comedy movies because it’s nice to feel my voice turn into a laugh uncontrollably. I like movies. I’m obsessive compulsive with chapstick, And I plan on voting for Obama. Don’t ask why. I don’t know why.

I like to say the word , *******. It has a nice ring. People don’t like it when I say goddamn. I do. So I say it to myself. My favorite book is “Invisible Monsters” by Chuck Palahniuk. I used to play World of Warcraft, used to as in up to three days ago. I don’t like to talk about it, but if I must sum it up in one word. Drama.

I love quotes. I love the way horses look. People are stupid. And I’m a person.

So there ya go lol. That’s half of me. The other half is longer and more boring about my past and why I am what I am.

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