Rant here.
Ok. I started cutting my wrists a few weeks ago. And then stopped. And now I think I’ve got four scars on my wrist which I couldn’t particularly care about, but my mum does ¬¬. Even though I’ve stopped, I want to start again because I miss the pain I felt when I did it. I can’t discuss this with anyone because I think my mum expects me to be the ‘normal’ daughter and my friends in school just aren’t nice enough to talk to - we’re not proper friends. I want to find someone to talk to, to discuss my feelings. Anyone wanna chat or something? No-one actually understands how I feel right now.
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There are a lot of people that understand how you feel, hun.
Don’t start cutting again, if not for yourself do it for the people that love you.
i used to cut.
It was an addiction I had for 2 and a half years, and still have the urge to do it again at times. So I thoroughly understand wht you’re saying.
Go ahead and shout at me if you’d like…I’ll help the best I can.
i don’t know how else to make myself feel better, though
thanks for the speedy replies btw, wasn’t expecting so many! (only registered here like 20 mins ago lol)
that was exactly my problem.
& when I’m upset I still don’t know what to do.
Honestly I just wait it out. I dont try to make myself feel better.
I just sit around feeling crappy until I come out of it. It can be dificult, but it’s better than harming myself…
I for one, turn to music, and writing when I’m upset. It might be the same for you.
That, or I’d get myself so deeply into a book, I wouldn’t think about it and it would slowly go away…
My mom was shocked when she found out. She put me in therapy. It did actually help.
She never expected me to…There’s a lot I could say, but it would take too long to type. I might post my story someday on here..
Anywho, that was sorta my solution…
It can get really addicting. You need to find a way out, and if that means telling your parents & them thinking youre not normal, so be it. It’ll get worse as it progresses.
I didn’t do it very frequently…but still enough to become addicted.
i do usually wait it out, but then the feeling just comes back =[
the problem with my mum is that she wants to believe that everything about me is fine. when she first saw my wrist she was all like “oh, hide them. we don’t want the school getting you a child psychologist or something”.
and, being honest, i don’t want therapy because i want to try and get through this without too much hassle. but i don’t feel comfortable talking to other people about how i’m feeling, although i know i should =\.
i’m so awkward… =[ lol
if its any help i’m begining to suspect that i’m slightly schizophrenic, which sometimes i doubt and i’m fine but other times it would make so much sense. I cant here voices or anything like that, its more paranoia and anxiety with some other weird stuff. The point is i’m 16 and ive no idea what to do and like you i dont want to see anyone about it but i fear it could potentially get worse as the condition develops between the ages of 13 and 21…
my sort of advice would be to talk to someone that you know will not tell anyone, you must have a counciler at your school? they’d be more than willing to talk to you and help you…
abviously you dont’t have to but its the best bet in my view…
i think telling someone would be the best idea, but i just don’t feel comfortable discussing my issues with people, especially teachers in school and stuff/councellors from school. the next two years are really important for me (exam years), and i don’t want to spend them going to counselling and getting “help”. i think i’m developing anxiety though, i just don’t want to admit it to myself.
by the way, this is off-topic, but does anyone know if you can change your age on this website? i typed in the wrong year by accident, and it said something about banning if you put the wrong age =S
i’m sure it wont take up that much time, it would be during break times and it would probably be worth it…
Hi there, yes well your mum sounds concerned but is kind of burying her head in the sand. I think it is important you talk to somebody who cares though, but if you really can’t discuss this then maybe consider calling a helpline especially if you get the urge to cut again. It can be hard, you probably feel numb and then you want to feel the pain release so you cut. I think you need to engage in a lot of activities to occupy yourself, so that you can distract your thoughts from being so negative. I would appreciate you take a look at the link below which may help you. I’ve offered this link before to other people here on the site and it has proved useful. Please let me know how you get on.
yeah…
my main problem is just that most of my problems are only temporary, yet they have a big effect on me. i panic over little things like how i’m going to act on school trips (i usually get all nervous and say the wrong things), but once these are finished i’m fine until there’s another big event.
i wouldn’t want to go to a counsellor or something, and then see them the next week and everything would be alright - my problems are very on/off most of the time
but still, thanks for the advice everyone, hopefully one day i’ll be able to talk to someone =]
Hey you can still talk here, even if you are alright you know :-) I think with cutting yourself you just have an urge to do it. It’s usually when a lot of frustration and / or anger takes over and there’s no pain to deal with it so cutting seems like a good option. I almost did that once a while ago, but stopped myself and instead tried to figure out how to get rid of the frustration and anger. It’s not always there but it flares up… I think it would help for you to just browse the link, if it didn’t help you in some way then fair enough, that’s ok but it might help you seek a better understanding and possibly a solution. Let me know if you do. I’m off to bed now but will be back in two days… I have to study tomorrow or else I’ll never pass these darn exams.
my friend is going through the same problem. her mum is making her take GCSE’S she doesnt want to do and has already chosen her carrer life for her. she taking her away to scotland soon cos uni is free there so shes taking her away from all her freinds.
Please take the time to read by post, you may find somethng there to help you feel better.
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