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I hate myself.
I hate how I look (I don’t care how many times people on here have said I’m pretty… I know I’m ugly)
I hate that I’m jealous of my own friends
I hate that I went looking for the pocket knife my mom hid from me… and cut again
I hate that I have suicidle thoughts
I hate that I feel like I’m doing all this for attention
I hate how my existence feels so useless
I hate everything about me
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I know where you’re coming from, but don’t just hate it fight it. If only out of sheer bloody mindedness, fight it.
One reply… man I feel like ****. I’ll tell you why no one wants to say anything… it’s because there are more “interesting” things to talk about. No one wants to listen to some person they don’t know wine about their life when they have bigger issues. This isn’t the first time it’s happened with me. Man… I should just kill myself.
Not that I don’t appreciate it anonymous replier.
For anyone who reads this… I hope your life is or turns out better than mine.
Your life isn’t over, simple as. Harsh as it may sound you have to go through this and the test is how you deal with this. I’m not interested in shoving my (or anyone else’s) perception of reality on you but the fact is that this has happened. Whether you’re religious agnostic or athiest God/The Universe/Life-in-general has chucked this at you whether you deserve it or not.
Screw what other people think of you, if they think you’re just attention seeking what does it matter? You know in yourself whether that’s true or not. So you cut, big deal. It’s more normal than most people think. You have to deal with what you’ve got, and you have to live with yourself.
I feel just like you………….exactly…
It feels over! Ugh! No one cares! Two people… TWO PEOPLE! That’s all who bothered. If no one cares about me… why should I care about myself?
There’s no point to this post… I’m closing it.
caring about yourself is much more important than caring about other people and self-worth should never be based on other’s opinions but your own. You shouldnt feel alienated, but you just need to affirm yourself in spite of the community around you. if you have anxiety of meaninglessness, then strive as much as possible to create a meaning for your existence that is important to you
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I’ve strived and strived for purpose… and so many times I’ve been close, but it doesn’t satisfy me. I’m useless.
Life is about the striving. You will never be satisfied for long. You just got to keep moving and get what meaning you can from this roller coaster we call life. Cause thats just what it is- a roller coaster. Sometimes you’re up and sometimes down. Just keep moving and appreciate what you can.
I’m here.
I know how you feel.
I feel like I have no purpose in life really.
I hate myself because I’m fat. ugly. no-one ever likes me.
I feel out of place.
I hate how my life turns out.
I hate how I can’t express myself without having an emotional anxiety attack.
I don’t hate, I try not to bring myself down, some things just happen for no reason. It doesn’t matter if you’re a good or “bad” person, you have potential, things can change.
Try to care about yourself, as hard as it may seem, there is only oe person on this world like you: every life has meaning, don’t give up.
I’m so sorry that you are going through this. Have you been abused? I hope that you will find help and take care of yourself instead of hurting yourself. I am sad that you are in such pain. :(
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