I can’t keep this in anymore.
I feel sick. With myself. I’m so inadequate. As a person. I’ve done so many horrible things. My existence has just been a massive screw up. A mistake. I’m a failure. I have such a demented thought process. I feel so alone. Like there’s something wrong with me. My biggest fear though… Is talking about it… My mum saw cuts on my wrist… She told me to do it on my leg, so no-one would see it. She told me it was attention seeking. It hurt me so bad… I followed her advice. It wasn’t good enough though. My pain will never be enough for her to see that I’m actually sad, until I kill myself…
Sometimes I think I don’t want to die. That scares me.
I hate going to school. I have too many people and no one I trust. No friends. I put up some fake thing. Because I don’t want to talk about myself… But I do SO badly. I just know when I start I wont stop. And no one wants to hear me drivel on about myself.
I hate myself.
I’m going to see a counsellor tomorrow. I’m scared she’ll say nothings wrong with me, and I’m scared she’ll say something is.
I know this is really long, and kind of pointless. But it helps just to get it out. See if people even care…
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