life help: I don’t deserve to be alive. - Help.com

Im going through the same thoughts as you I believe. I am not happy anymore unless I am with friends. But as soon as they go, so does my happiness. Right now Im trying to make more friends and have some of my current friends help me to meet more people. I hope it works. Maybe you can give that a try. Ive learned that you need to stop worrying about yourself and try to help others. In the end youll feel better after you see them smiling, at least for a little bit.

i’m going to say something, and you may not believe me, but everything might not get better, it might not, but it can if you actually do something about it. you can just leave. start fresh. theres nothing that can’t be undone, except a prison sentence.

Yes, you will have to help yourself at least a little. You will have to let yourself be helped, at least.

Try changing your circumstances or your feelings about your circumstances. What can’t be changed is the past.

Honestly, right now I feel like that too. But here we are so what can be done?

Come on. Stop just saying the same things. Take action to change things, for the better.

yes you do deserve to be alive im sure you have a ton of people who love and care for you and if you die it will hurt them so much dont give up you will get through this

Well it’s not. So you should think about doing something else instead.

youve done this a few times now man, when are you gonna get some proper help and stop feeling so sorry for yourself?

Amon wrote:
I’ve always felt like this.

There must have been a time Amon when you felt happy… try to think of a time when you were really happy.. can you tell me?

amon,when you gona get some proper helplv?

well with an attitude like that, you sure are gonna be unhappy forever. man, quit feeling sorry for yourself eh. maybe if yo went and helped some people, or talked to the guy who lost everything and lives under your local bridge youd realise your life aint that bad.

I have given this a lot of thought and I think you should call your local hospital and ask if there is anyone there that would like a visitor and then go visit sick people in the hospital. Most hospitals have that. Friendly visitor volunteers for those who have no family/friends.

Amon wrote:

Xx.Kylie.xX wrote:
yes you do deserve to be alive im sure you have a ton of people who love and care for you and if you die it will hurt them so much dont give up you will get through this

No one where I live cares.

yes im sure they do you may think your parents dont and believe me i felt like that with mine to but im finally opening my eyes to how many people care and want to help me and you will to + everyone here at help.com is here for you :)

if thats not feeling sorry for yourself and wallowing in self pity, lord knows what is.

Amon, if you are 20 years old - move out. You don’t deserve that pain, neither are you worthless. Life is worth living but not if your parents keep putting you down. There is no such thing as a bad person, there’s good and bad in all of us, nobody is perfect believe me. Can you not move out away from the pain of your parents abuse?

Sorry life is always worth living - I meant you should not have to put up with your parents treating you that way.

man, so many people here are trying to help you. youve made post after post about this, and have gotten god knows how many replies trying to help you, and you throw it back in peoples faces.
so tell us, what do you WANT us to tell you?

Cell wrote:
I have given this a lot of thought and I think you should call your local hospital and ask if there is anyone there that would like a visitor and then go visit sick people in the hospital. Most hospitals have that. Friendly visitor volunteers for those who have no family/friends.

Hey, you didn’t even reply! I seriously thought about you a lot. At least tell me what you think. I think it would help you to help others and to spend less time thinking about stuff.

Cell wrote:

Cell wrote:
I have given this a lot of thought and I think you should call your local hospital and ask if there is anyone there that would like a visitor and then go visit sick people in the hospital. Most hospitals have that. Friendly visitor volunteers for those who have no family/friends.

Hey, you didn’t even reply! I seriously thought about you a lot. At least tell me what you think. I think it would help you to help others and to spend less time thinking about stuff.

Do you think this could work for you? Do you have a hospital near to where you live? If not, what else could you do that would be helpful to others? Please reply!

Then why r u here?

Yes, I think we need people for happiness.

everyone needs people. its the human condition.we are social animals.
you wouldnt be here if you didnt need people.
you wouldnt function without other people.

“physchological problems rooted from childhood”

You found your problem. You were never taught to deal with the negative emotional aspects of life and how to forgive your self and others so you could move on. Throughout life you never learned how to deal with anything, so you are stuck with the mental and emotional skills of a two year old. You refuse any incite or help because you have no trust in people. Your problems now are not because people are doing you wrong, you just have always felt that way. You never learned how to interact with other people because your childhood was F’ed up. And even knowing the problem doesn’t help because you don’t let the doctors know everything that has happened to you to give you a proper diagnosis. Or you won’t follow how to fix it. Your problems are text book issues with the ordeals you have been through growing up. (even the, killing animals thing)

“He is a ball of anger. He is now an angry resentful, revengeful man.”

You will have to go to a professional to learn the skills to cope with the “past”, deal with the present, and move forward to a better life. It will be difficult and require all your effort and time. You are right, no one here can help you. You need a trained professional, or commit your self. I hope you find happiness. (without violence)

Amon wrote:
There is a boy who is born to unloving and uncaring parents. His father is a workaholic and an alcholic. His mother is an abusive lying pothead. His parents being neither rich nor poor never give him presents or attention. He realizes from a young age that he is doomed. He lives through his elementry years alone, scared, scarred, beaten and partly broken with two half sisters who refuse to awknowledge his existence. He has problems that cause people to call him special for, yet they are actually physchological problems rooted from childhood. His uncle molestes him. He is also latter rapped. He keeps these a secret. He is tormented and bullied without end. He suceeds into his room for years hating the outside. He dreams about dying all of the time. He plans suicide but never completes it. He does extroardanarily well in school. He hopes that his parents will love him for it but they are to busy. He does stupid and clumsy things from time to time because of his social akwardness. People hate him without trying to understand him. During junior-high school he falls in love, a girl who finally talks to him. They love each other for several years, he finally tastes what it is like to be loved. He even meets three friends. His marks drop a bit. She moves to another city not far away. On her birthday she is hit by a motor vehicle. He visits her without his parents consent. She gives him a ring and then she dies. He is sad, sorrowful. But then some months later the group falls apart after one of them kills himself. The one friend leaves to go far away. The last betrays the boy. He is saddened further. His sadness turns to rage. The ocean of anger he is forced to live is unimaginable. His parents bully him without mercy. His father calls him things like white indian and the same name as his uncle. Highschool starts and his grades drop. He does stupid horrible things to get attention. He robbes a store. He starts drinking allot. He steals and kills small animals for fun. But it isn’t fun. Two individuals start talking to him in his mind, they take control now and again. His dreams haunt him. In his dreams he sees a young boy. His former self. He was once and deep down still is an upright hero who would sacrifice himself to see love and peace in the world. But all he sees is hate. He crys and scars himself all over. He blames himself for her death. It is his fault, he was stupid, young and reckless. He looks in the mirror and hates what he sees but even more what he might become. His anger is so immense that he could and likely do terrible unspeakable things to his fellow man. He wants to be a hero, but all he sees is a villian. He looks for more friends and for more love. All he finds is ridicule and insult. He becomes ever more distant from society. He goes on pills that don’t work. He sees shrinks that don’t help. He feels so much pain. He drops out and joins the army. He sees terrible things, death. His future is dead. But he is not broken. He is a ball of anger. He is now an angry resentful, revengeful man.

Amon has been banned. Wow. I wonder if a lot of people are getting kicked? It’s sad. That guy really needed help. Well, maybe it was hopeless anyway. Maybe he will find peace.

no, that guy really needed to help himself. hes been here, complaining about how life is crap for a long time now, and had posts filled with advice. none of which he took. most of which he rejected without a second thought.
theres only so many times you can tell a person that their life is their own to fix.