so…
life…is way to hard…and remember how i was all, i’m moving out when i turn 18 and whatever…well, i don’t really have a job, so i can’t do that….i’m stuck…so, i just counted, and that girl, sarah, we’ll call her, i was dating who i’m completely head over heels in love with, well she broke up with me exactly 3 months and 7 days ago…exciting right….so now, this other girl, she’s kinda in love with me, but i know i’ll hurt her, like, i have a feeling, i can’t exactly explain it, you’ll understand if you’ve had the feeling….but…see, here’s the thing, “sarah” says she loves me, and i love her…as we’ve established…so…why aren’t we dating again? well, the answer to that is because she loves 2 oher people as well….but see…the other 2, well, they’re kind of, not really able to be with her…and won’t be able to be with her for a while, i assume….and so here i am kinda stuck waiting, because i don’t want to break anyone’s heart, and want to be with the only girl i’ve ever loved…and to be quite honest, i feel like she’s the ONLY girl i will ever love….and, that scares me, because i was talking to my mom the other day, i know shocker right? and like, i was talking to her about how when i turn like 30 my brother and sister will be like 45 and when i’m 35 they’ll be 50…and like, that made me think, how much time i had to fall in love with someone else….and stuff, but then i was also thinking how my parents are both over the age of 50 and they’ve been together since they we’re like 16 and 18, and so then i wonder…maybe she IS the one, and she just doesn’t WANT to be….and then like, i feel like i’m in the movie eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, in so many ways, i am jim carrey’s charater, and “sarah” is clementine(sp?)….and how much, it’d help if i could have my mind erased, but,then this question arises, if we’re meant to be, aren’t we going to be? but then, like it, also brought up this other question, like, you know how, at the end they were both brainwashed, but they went through like the same cycle of meeting on the train, and stuff, then, is their relationship doomed to fail again? and so, help.com users, i ask you this,
if i do end up going out with “sarah” again, are we doomed to the same fate that our first encounter happened upon?
what do you think?
This open post was written 1 year, 1 month ago | V/U/S: 106, 6, 2 | Edit Post | Leave a reply | Report Post
Reciprocity (0) 
Since writing this post Xenos may have helped people, but has not within the last 4 days. Xenos is a verified member, has been around for 1 year, 9 months and has 6 posts and 56 replies to their name.
Replies (6)
Where were you?
You can also watch events on Help.com as they happen
rayes_lock
Invite Others to Help
A logged in and verified Help.com member has the ability to setup a Friends List and invite others to help with posts.