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I cant take it anymore.
I’m 20 years old and a beautiful girl every one says so. but I dont have a life I move every year to different states/ countries with my family, I should be happy but I’m not I havent been going to school for 3 years so far. and I cant work because i dont have someone to sponcer me for a job, and I’m tired of staying at home watching TV and staying on my computer. I dont even drive. I cant go any where. therefore cant make any friends, I want to go back to school but I dont even know what field I want to go it to. and i dont think i would get in at any collage ( I suck at interviews ) my collage education is paid for, for 4 years and I just have to find my self somehow. I’m allways bored and allways depressed, I allways think. I think about the past allot what Ive been through, what I should have done, what I shouldnt of done and I allways think about what I should do with my life. I swear I feel like the last 3 1/2 years was a waste, I never did anything but stay at home. I even found a way to send electric shock through my spine just by thinking/consintateing hard enough, It helps temporarily but then the emotional pain starts again, its wiered I used to think ” how could someone cut there self” but now I know and feel there pain, I just dont cut because I scar very easily, I care about how i look. I allways see other 20 year olds living there life, going to school, and haveing fun. It sucks, I want to do those things. I want adventure in my life, yes I’m traveling the world and I love traveling but I want to travel and see the countries, and the people in the countries. Im forgeting how to socialize its depressing. I know I shouldnt complain because I know other people have it much worse but I cant help it.
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