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I have random thoughts that I don’t want to have.I feel like I have all the problems in the world.

I feel like something is wrong with me. I’m a slow learner compared to other people. I talk to god when something is wrong when I’m alone. I feel like I have bad spirits in me sometimes. I want to seek professional help but I cant afford it. I miss my life when I was so innocent when I was in elementary. School’s been a problem for me ever since I moved from NY to FL in 6th grade. I have the best friends I could ever have but now I moved to GA. I get frustrated when i think something is wrong with me. I argue with myself when people tell me there’s something wrong with me or if I did something wrong. How come everybody knows something that i don’t? I feel like i depend too much on other people like my parents and that’s why I don’t know much. I try to concentrate but i get distracted or just frustrated from trying to concentrate. It’s been 4 months in GA and I still don’t have friends. Just my sister and family which i love very much. I always thought about killing myself ever since 4th grade because I missed a huge assignment. Not that I wanted to kill myself it’s just that there were times that I felt like I was a failure and I usually always did great in school, til’ that day and now I’m in college and missing a few assignments and procrastinating every one. I never had the guts to attempt death but I just want to stop thinking about it everytime something goes wrong about me. When something bad happens to someone else like in my family I tend not to really care. Even though I love them. I have bad habits to the thousands and it’s embarrassing. I think all this happens is because I never confessed in my life. MY life isn’t really bad It’s just the thought of school frustrates me. But when i start a new fresh year I get pumped and then something goes wrong. I just want to feel fresh again. The only way to get my frustration out sometimes is when i go out and rollerblade or go to the gym, but now it gets boring and still that would’nt help my school trouble. If you were to look at me you couldn’t tell what’s wrong it’s just that my thoughts go crazy and I can’t control them.

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