life help: If I knew how I would. - Help.com

the best thing to do lv is talk
im here :)

It’s the crazyest thing ever. I never thought I’d get to a point where I didn’t want to live anymore but I guess I’m there. I don’t want to fight off the feelings anymore they are getting too strong. I’ve even googled ways to kill myself…wow, that sounded sick….

no that didnt sound sick.it sounded desperate !
basically youve hit the bottom
question is how we going to get you back up the top again??

ok tell me a bit about yourself :)

There really isn’t much to tell. I’m 17y/girl who can’t get anything right. My family are not the most supportive people in the world so I can’t really talk to them about the way I’ve been feeling. It would just make sense to die becasue there would be so much benifit to come out of it. For example, my mom’s having financial problems, my life insurence policey would cover all of that, my brother could have the room he’s always wanted far enough away from the parentals (it would keep him out of trouble with the folks) my boyfriend wouldn’t have to have such a crazy girlfriend to juggle around with his busy life, and my friends wouldn’t have to endure the rediculous negativity that I’ve put them through.

when you say their isnt much to tell
youve just given me 4 reasons to live!!

explain to me why you think you get evrything wrong?

IT’s like everytime I try to help things either nothing changes and stays exactly the same or things get 10X worse! IT’s sooooo frustrating becasue I have to fake through everything! It’s like why even try anymore when in the long run nothing is going to come out of it but the same old thing. Frankly, that isn’t good enough and I’m tired of living like everythings ok when nothing is. No one wants to realize that anything is wrong. It’s like they just don’t care enough to give a darn about anything anymore!

what do you think all the 4 resons to live would miss the most?
daughter=you
money=you
friendship=you
love=you

i know which ones i would choose :)

all familys have money troubles
all brothers/sisters are pains in the arses!
all bf love to have crazy gf(it spices things up a bit)
&thats what friends are there for to listen

right…you tell me what you think your doing wrong?:)

anon,in your own words
you tell me what changes you would like to make :)

I couldn’t even begin. I’m sorry. I have to go. Eveyone will be home in a little while and if I’m the computer when eveyone gets home **** will hit the fan. Anyway thanks for talking with me!

anon,talk any time ok :)

Thnks!:)