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I don’t know what to do.

I’m 18 and for around 4 years I’ve been trying to cope with depression and a bad case of anxiety. But everything just keeps messing up! I make mistakes at work, I drive myself insane over stupid little things and worry about things a normal person wouldn’t care about. I can’t concentrate, I find it hard to work properly without worrying, getting worked up and upset.

After worrying, I make myself ill for a few hours; I get a bad head ache, I feel faint and my hands shake.
I just hate it and I hate who its turned me into. I get so angry at myself, I just want to ram a knife into my hand or hurt myself in some kind of way.

I’m extremely paranoid and I feel like everyone is insulting me behind my back and just being nice to my face. I’m also very short temperd and violent.

I’ve had anti-depressants, I refuse to take them anymore because I dont want them! I’ve had therapy once and the guy never saw me again. My family act like Im some kind of time-bomb and they’re ready to chuck me in a loony-bin.

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1 year ago (36 minutes after post)

jamesafaubio wrote:
i need to know more about you. are you like this because you’re lonely? if so my advice to everyone is 1) figure out what you are naturally good at. 2) develop a good relationship with yourself based on your good points.

probs at work could be a result of working with jackasses that don’t take their job seriously. if thats the case, do a good job at all times. the boss WILL notice!

if you are a guy, lookup david deangelo, or loveme.com. if your a chick, it might be you need to lose weight, in which case drink lots of mountain dew and eat all the time, healthy things like salads. outback steakhouse makes the only good salads ive EVER had. baby spinach makes a good snack.

you dont feel good because you dont have a reason to. i also recommend you look at a book called rich dad poor dad.

Here’s some details;
I’m a girl, UK, I’m a nursing assistant.
I had an abusive father and I have a very ill mother. I cripple under pressure, which is a bad thing in my profession.
It makes me feel awful, knowing people have to be careful with what they’re saying to me, because I could interprit it to be something vicous when it isnt.
But I cant control it, I cant even control the anxiety, I beat myself up continuously for anything.

And no, I’m not lonely. Alot of deaths occured in my family in a VERY short time period when I was a kid. One was murdered and the others died from terminal dieseases.

First was my aunt, she died of a heart attack.
Then it was my grandmother (she was like my bestfriend), she died of cancer.
Then my baby cousin was murdered.
Then my grandfather(he was my father figure), he died of Motor Neurones Diesease.

I was young and thought I could cope, but as I got older, the amount of emotions and thoughts began to pile up and then at 16, I began to keep myself away from people; wanting to be left alone.I shunned friends and family and almost lived in my room 24/7.

I’d lie in my bed thinking; “Why bother getting up?” I gave up on life. I hated myself and I hated being around people. Even going to the store was something I wouldn’t do.

I just want to lock myself away from the world and be left alone again.

I can’t really put it into words, what goes on in my mind. All I know is, its not the norm and Im growing tired of it.

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Felicity offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (2 hours, 45 minutes after post)

Face your fears, if that means speaking up, confronting someone or something do it when it comes up and get into therapy again and take the meds. I never liked meds but now that im out and my psych quit on me I see how good they did me and how much i need them, take advantage of these things while you have them. Why suffer if you dont have to is my motto

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Felicity offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (2 hours, 48 minutes after post)

I just seen your reply about yourself. Im not a doctor but I strongly think you could be suffering from PTSD. Do you know what this is?

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (5 hours, 19 minutes after post)

{Felicity} wrote:
I just seen your reply about yourself. Im not a doctor but I strongly think you could be suffering from PTSD. Do you know what this is?

I have no idea what that is.

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Felicity offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (6 hours, 39 minutes after post)

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder’ the best thing to do is get an assessment done by a professional. YOu can browse mental health sites to get some info on it and daily strength is a site for online support groups but we will be here for you too

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