I destroyed my 20 year marriage & imediately moved on into a relationship with another woman thinking it would be the answer.
Well the relationship after my ex was a disaster & I believe has caused me more harm or just as much as loosing the women I loved for so long.
I am all alone now. The feelings of being alone are overwhelming me. 5 crazy months with her & we are done. SO much drama.
My friends have even distanced themselves from me. My parents are too elderly to involve in my madness.
I am surrounded by people yet I am TRULY alone. Perhaps there is no answer for me. Perhaps this is punishment for me letting my marriage slip away.
I just don’t know anymore. I have no goals. What do I work for? I feel that I have no plans for the future. I feel the need to be with someone at all costs. I feel the need to be able to give myself to someone & to be able to love and care for someone.
I just can’t seem to be happy being alone. Its like i have to be with someone that I can love and be loved by. It is the focus of my life now. Is it worng? Am I crazy because of my need to be with and or find my soulmate again. God took her from my hands. He hasn’t put anything back yet.
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