Life and death its scares me so much and yet it thrills me to know at any moment i have the power to take it all away.
i am not suicidal i went down that path and i appreciate life and love it too much to go down that again. but just to think about it a human life is so fragile at any moment you could take it away. swallow 10..15..20..30..40 pills at once and boom your out or take the knife and slash your arms so deep or to tie a rope around your neck and take the breath of life away. its so frightening to think these thoughts because i know i would never do it but it thrills me to know i could that i have that kind of power like i could end it now at any moment at any time. its spectacular, sick, and petrifying at the same time it gives me a sort of rush to think about it.
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