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I cant do this anymore.

I no longer have the strength or the will to live even one more day. I have been suicidal for over a month now. I checked myself into a hospital for a week for treatment and got out this past Saturday. Life has gotten worse. :(

I will soon become homeless. I have now lost everything. My wife, my kids, and now my ability to live.

If I can find a place, I think tonight or tomorrow is going to be it for me.

I want this pain to end. I am a 42yr old loser, and I just dont have the strength or will to exist. I have prayed extensively to God, but I havent found any other answers.

What in the heck is wrong with me.

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girl-statica offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (11 minutes after post)

I”m sorry all this is happening to you:( You are not a loser! Sometimes people get the butt end of things in life. It isn’t fair but change will come. Usually things get more difficult before they get better. If you are seriously thinking about suicide go back to the hospital. People do care about you. Just think how your kids will feel knowing they won’t EVER see their father again!

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bigbillm offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (22 minutes after post)

I think my kids can get over it. Really, would they want a streetbum Dad instead?

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IDon'tEverQuit offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 216 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year ago (25 minutes after post)

your kids won’t get over it. ever. they will spend their life wondering why their dad didn’t think they were important enough to live for.

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bigbillm offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (30 minutes after post)

No….they will know the truth. I am sick. Very ill. I suffer from major Depression and my ex knows that. Besides….if I become homeless…they wont see me anymore…so what difference does it make, really? Except for the pain.

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IDon'tEverQuit offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 216 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year ago (31 minutes after post)

i have depression too and it isn’t easy. fight for them! don’t give up! Your kids are the best reason to get better! stop using excuses. get out there, fight to put your life back to rights and get going! you can do it! do it for your kids!!!

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juhur offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (33 minutes after post)

The statistics on people who kill themselves,because a parent did it, are higher than your normal suicide rate. The children of suicide victims always blame themselves. no matter how much therapy they have, it’s psycological and they NEVER get over it.
There are shelters or churches,that help with shelter. Please click on my profile read what i wrote, when i lost a loved one…..you’ll miss just touching, the feel of the flesh. Give me a shout after u read my profile….see if u catch the message!!!!

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theresape offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Waltham, MA, US | 1 year ago (41 minutes after post)

Why did they let you leave the hospital if you are still suicidal? Look, my friend, the thing is that all these problems are temporary problems—they have solutions. Sometimes it’s not easy to believe that. But it’s true. I will keep you in my prayers.

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theresape offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Waltham, MA, US | 1 year ago (50 minutes after post)

I just had an inspiration: Group therapy. You need to be in a group where you can test your perceptions against those of other people and get their reactions. It’s a great therapy for guys who are “stuck.” Honestly, Bill, it would make a HUGE difference for you. Call your shrink and see if you can get into a therapy group.

You are worth saving. This is a way.

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bigbillm offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (1 hour, 6 minutes after post)

Thanks. I know this much though. If I do end up being homeless, before I loose my car, I am going to drive to a warm climate city, like San Antonio or something. Better to be homeless there, than try and survive the winter here in Illinois in the cold.

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theresape offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Waltham, MA, US | 1 year ago (1 hour, 20 minutes after post)

So drive to a new, warm city and join a therapy group there. Do you have a support network—relatives and friends—in some pleasant climate?

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bigbillm offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (1 hour, 21 minutes after post)

Nope

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juhur offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (1 hour, 40 minutes after post)

When i found out my ex-husband,who was a cocaine addict sexually abused my nine year old daughter,on his visitation…….i played this song over and over until i finally quit crying….i hope it will help you….http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=efkpd_trvc8..
Let me know…by the way your children always love you…..no matter what u do!

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